I remember around 6 months ago.
My team and I was joking that we will get HD for our Final Year Project.
At that time, I have plan in my head, I have confident in my teammates' capability and teamwork.
We have many meetings and every meeting everyone will try their best to attend, it is already a very good sign.
They complete the tasks I given to them. I learn a lot of things along the way, try out new stuff, thinking of new ideas, changing initial UI design, take in new idea for UI design. So many months of hard work have paid off!
Today, my friend tell me the result is out. I go check on UOW site.
I got a HD! 86/100! It is unbelievable! Before this happen, I always thought that getting a High Distinction for Final Year Project is a dream.
This feeling actually happen before during my poly time, when I am the only person got Distinction in class for Final Year Project, I was like "Wow! I am kinda of lucky!"
But my study life not always full of success, I have failure when my poly teammate just tell me his hard disk crash and everything gone.
For my uni fyp, my best programmer fall sick and went to hospital, lucky he is healthy now. I am lucky to have such a responsible teammate who willing to teach me more stuff even he is in hospital.
God is good, Life is good, I shall work even harder. Hope one day I can achieve my dream and complete other dream too.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Saturday, July 03, 2010
Life's Darkest Moment
Everyone has their darkest moment in life.
Everyone has their dark secret.
Everyone has the scar that remind them of the past.
Everyone has a unique problem which require themselves to overcome it.
But everyone is not alone. Maybe that is source of the problem.
Normally people fall into darkest moment in life is due to several reason.
1. Family/Friend/Pet pass away.
2. Unable to cope with study.
3. Accident/Illness happen to them.
4. Got betray.
5. Peer Pressure.
All these reasons is simply because they are not alone, their emotion is tied to one and other, competitive environment, the fear of losing/outcast, the loss of "daily" companion.
Afraid other seeing their scar, the scar make them fear of the uncertainty in future.
Problem that only they know the best and only they can overcome, because the enemy is themselves...the enemy comes in many form...pride,ego,seniority,fame and power.
The solution to all the fear. It is faith. Believe in yourself and think positively.
Everyone has their brightest moment in life. So when you are at the darkest time very soon you will see the light (same theory as day & night cycle)
Everyone has their proud moment. Never be too proud or too ashame with yourself. Because without every moment in your life. You will not achieve what you have today.
Everyone has a success secret to share with others, because they have survived, overcome and succeed. They are able to share and help people around them.
Every scar is a beauty, the scar symbolize you have survived, you have healed. It is a mark to remind you that how unbeatable you are.
Every unique problem is a trial. Overcome your personal trial to break personal limit and after that you will be wiser and stronger.
It is because everyone is not alone. Hence, we have the meaning to live on.
If Fighting alone is tough, why not Fight together. After all, we are family, friends and Human.
When a problem struck me hard and pushes me back, I move forward twice as hard to get myself back on track.
Where the strength comes from? It is comes from family, friends, faith and God.
Hope everyone is doing well and if you have any problem, I hope you can share and I am able to help or at least I can be your listening ear.
Everyone has their dark secret.
Everyone has the scar that remind them of the past.
Everyone has a unique problem which require themselves to overcome it.
But everyone is not alone. Maybe that is source of the problem.
Normally people fall into darkest moment in life is due to several reason.
1. Family/Friend/Pet pass away.
2. Unable to cope with study.
3. Accident/Illness happen to them.
4. Got betray.
5. Peer Pressure.
All these reasons is simply because they are not alone, their emotion is tied to one and other, competitive environment, the fear of losing/outcast, the loss of "daily" companion.
Afraid other seeing their scar, the scar make them fear of the uncertainty in future.
Problem that only they know the best and only they can overcome, because the enemy is themselves...the enemy comes in many form...pride,ego,seniority,fame and power.
The solution to all the fear. It is faith. Believe in yourself and think positively.
Everyone has their brightest moment in life. So when you are at the darkest time very soon you will see the light (same theory as day & night cycle)
Everyone has their proud moment. Never be too proud or too ashame with yourself. Because without every moment in your life. You will not achieve what you have today.
Everyone has a success secret to share with others, because they have survived, overcome and succeed. They are able to share and help people around them.
Every scar is a beauty, the scar symbolize you have survived, you have healed. It is a mark to remind you that how unbeatable you are.
Every unique problem is a trial. Overcome your personal trial to break personal limit and after that you will be wiser and stronger.
It is because everyone is not alone. Hence, we have the meaning to live on.
If Fighting alone is tough, why not Fight together. After all, we are family, friends and Human.
When a problem struck me hard and pushes me back, I move forward twice as hard to get myself back on track.
Where the strength comes from? It is comes from family, friends, faith and God.
Hope everyone is doing well and if you have any problem, I hope you can share and I am able to help or at least I can be your listening ear.
Monday, June 28, 2010
Completed University Life
At the age of 22, I completed my university life.
Not because I am genius.
Simply because I am lucky.
Born in a good family. Born at a good time. ORD at the right time.
I have a goal, I have a plan, I have 732 days left.
I just wish everything happen just like what I planned.
Because sometime bad things happen and I don't know how well I can handle it.
When people ask my age, I often spend sometime recalling it...somehow I got confuse how old I am...but after tomorrow I know I am 23.
I got myself a new computer. I should feel happy, but I don't really feel much happiness. I think I see Shannon laugh, I feel happier loh. Maybe I need to spent more gaming time on the new computer to make me understand it is worth it. But I think I prefer spent more time with Shannon, so interesting and magical to see a baby grow up.
23rd Birthday Wishlist:
Mum recover fully.
Eldest Sister recover fully.
Elder Sister is happy and less work to do.
Both my brother in law is happy and successful in career and family.
Shannon is happy.
My money in bank decide to multiply themselves.
Get into Digipen and Ubisoft.
Get a driving license.
All my friends is happy, healthy and lucky.
I want a girlfriend...haha...simple wish list right? Not greedy right?
Deal? Great :D
Not because I am genius.
Simply because I am lucky.
Born in a good family. Born at a good time. ORD at the right time.
I have a goal, I have a plan, I have 732 days left.
I just wish everything happen just like what I planned.
Because sometime bad things happen and I don't know how well I can handle it.
When people ask my age, I often spend sometime recalling it...somehow I got confuse how old I am...but after tomorrow I know I am 23.
I got myself a new computer. I should feel happy, but I don't really feel much happiness. I think I see Shannon laugh, I feel happier loh. Maybe I need to spent more gaming time on the new computer to make me understand it is worth it. But I think I prefer spent more time with Shannon, so interesting and magical to see a baby grow up.
23rd Birthday Wishlist:
Mum recover fully.
Eldest Sister recover fully.
Elder Sister is happy and less work to do.
Both my brother in law is happy and successful in career and family.
Shannon is happy.
My money in bank decide to multiply themselves.
Get into Digipen and Ubisoft.
Get a driving license.
All my friends is happy, healthy and lucky.
I want a girlfriend...haha...simple wish list right? Not greedy right?
Deal? Great :D
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Do you still remember your first time?
Don't get me wrong, I not here to share my first sexual experience or remind yours.
I am here to remind everyone but most importantly myself on my first time experience.
Do you remember the first hug or first kiss you have? Very highly possible it is from your parent. If you are parent will you allow other to kiss/hug your child first? haha highly not possible right? Although you can't give your parent as much attention as you were young, but you still can do a lot of things to remind them the happiness of creating you and felt all the time and effort is worth it.
I still hug my mom quite often, although she often too shy and reject my hug but I still attempt every few days. Actually I get quite sad when she reject my hug, heng my skin thick enough and my memory bad enough, usually the sadness is not very lasting...around 3 second?
Do you remember the first birthday wish you made? I can't remember mine too, but I used to make a birthday wish of having a bicycle...I think I make that wish for few years ba...quite waste hor? Bicycle so cheap only...I spent few years wish for it. In the end, I buy myself one bicycle somemore loh...$60 only. I do quite a lot of upgrade on it...I think I spent more money on the bike accessories than the bike...even the lock also cost me $30+ I actually want to upgrade it til world best bike de loh. But too bad during one accident the bike got too severe damage til no people willing to repair. Then got cheapo people come steal my spoil part then slowly steal everything...so my bike just got "recycle".
Do you remember your first love? I remember leh...the feeling quite shiok loh...that time I though I am the happiest person in the world liao. From the first sight, first chat, first phone call, first date, first hold hand, first hug, first kiss, first...til first breakup...wow more shiok I thought I die liao...no more heart...no more motivation to live til tomorrow. From chatting with girlfriend to chatting with pillow. From staring at her eyes to staring at the ceilling. From laugh with her to laugh at myself. Three days after breakup is like three years of repeating past memories. Haha, sound bullshit right? Yup it is bullshit...I am LJJ leh...breakup only nia...treat it as my first fall loh.
Do you remember the first time you buy phone? I remember also...cause when I young, damn poor, the phone i use is my sister donated to me also. The screen is either orange/green light. Send messenge got limit also. Keep messenge also got limit. Best part I using Hi-Card...it might well call "no money no hi" card...everytime I talk until most important part...then it say "sorry, please top up your card" Then I finally start work then got money. Buy a lot of things ar...one of them is my first phone. Nokia 6220 cost around $600 leh...now you know why Nokia so rich last time. Then I very happy...finally got multi-color and camera phone. Then I changed a few phone after that...working at Nokia HQ even more shiok I can have around three phone in my pocket sometime. But I never sell or trade-in any of my phone...I keep them in a box, wait for them to evolve. Then I got my iPhone 3GS...when I first used, I realise it is a revolutionary phone but 6 months later now I think iPhone 4 will be more power because of the "FaceTime" anyway I think I wouldn't change phone so fast. Cause no people will FaceTime with me also, I think they will still prefer to see me face to face ba.
Do you remember the first time reading my blog? From reading post by post til reading finish all the post right? Then lazy me just no update...then you also no patience to wait for new post...then until now manage to read a new post again. Yeah.
Morale of the story, we often too focus getting something new and forgot the initial experience of getting/having something that we really wanted for very long...then in the end we decide to abandon the old for the new one...what we might be losing is maybe ourself...old self. Haha, that why people say I never changes...got lah...you can't see only.
I am here to remind everyone but most importantly myself on my first time experience.
Do you remember the first hug or first kiss you have? Very highly possible it is from your parent. If you are parent will you allow other to kiss/hug your child first? haha highly not possible right? Although you can't give your parent as much attention as you were young, but you still can do a lot of things to remind them the happiness of creating you and felt all the time and effort is worth it.
I still hug my mom quite often, although she often too shy and reject my hug but I still attempt every few days. Actually I get quite sad when she reject my hug, heng my skin thick enough and my memory bad enough, usually the sadness is not very lasting...around 3 second?
Do you remember the first birthday wish you made? I can't remember mine too, but I used to make a birthday wish of having a bicycle...I think I make that wish for few years ba...quite waste hor? Bicycle so cheap only...I spent few years wish for it. In the end, I buy myself one bicycle somemore loh...$60 only. I do quite a lot of upgrade on it...I think I spent more money on the bike accessories than the bike...even the lock also cost me $30+ I actually want to upgrade it til world best bike de loh. But too bad during one accident the bike got too severe damage til no people willing to repair. Then got cheapo people come steal my spoil part then slowly steal everything...so my bike just got "recycle".
Do you remember your first love? I remember leh...the feeling quite shiok loh...that time I though I am the happiest person in the world liao. From the first sight, first chat, first phone call, first date, first hold hand, first hug, first kiss, first...til first breakup...wow more shiok I thought I die liao...no more heart...no more motivation to live til tomorrow. From chatting with girlfriend to chatting with pillow. From staring at her eyes to staring at the ceilling. From laugh with her to laugh at myself. Three days after breakup is like three years of repeating past memories. Haha, sound bullshit right? Yup it is bullshit...I am LJJ leh...breakup only nia...treat it as my first fall loh.
Do you remember the first time you buy phone? I remember also...cause when I young, damn poor, the phone i use is my sister donated to me also. The screen is either orange/green light. Send messenge got limit also. Keep messenge also got limit. Best part I using Hi-Card...it might well call "no money no hi" card...everytime I talk until most important part...then it say "sorry, please top up your card" Then I finally start work then got money. Buy a lot of things ar...one of them is my first phone. Nokia 6220 cost around $600 leh...now you know why Nokia so rich last time. Then I very happy...finally got multi-color and camera phone. Then I changed a few phone after that...working at Nokia HQ even more shiok I can have around three phone in my pocket sometime. But I never sell or trade-in any of my phone...I keep them in a box, wait for them to evolve. Then I got my iPhone 3GS...when I first used, I realise it is a revolutionary phone but 6 months later now I think iPhone 4 will be more power because of the "FaceTime" anyway I think I wouldn't change phone so fast. Cause no people will FaceTime with me also, I think they will still prefer to see me face to face ba.
Do you remember the first time reading my blog? From reading post by post til reading finish all the post right? Then lazy me just no update...then you also no patience to wait for new post...then until now manage to read a new post again. Yeah.
Morale of the story, we often too focus getting something new and forgot the initial experience of getting/having something that we really wanted for very long...then in the end we decide to abandon the old for the new one...what we might be losing is maybe ourself...old self. Haha, that why people say I never changes...got lah...you can't see only.
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Receiving a call
Today I suddenly recall my NS days.
Days that I have to wake up early in the morning and walk around 1KM to reach my office.
During those days, the first call that I received early in the morning is always to ask me to work...maybe lucky days ask me to eat breakfast. But there is this special day when I received a call from my friend. I ask her why she call me. She say because I complain that everyday in the morning, the first call that I received is mostly come and make me sad. So she decide to be my first call. Wow, quite touching hor?
Haiz...but I afraid of my failing memory...so better write down first before I thought that is just an illusion of mine.
The morale of the story is having a caring friend can brighten up your day and may worth a lifetime of happy memory.
Days that I have to wake up early in the morning and walk around 1KM to reach my office.
During those days, the first call that I received early in the morning is always to ask me to work...maybe lucky days ask me to eat breakfast. But there is this special day when I received a call from my friend. I ask her why she call me. She say because I complain that everyday in the morning, the first call that I received is mostly come and make me sad. So she decide to be my first call. Wow, quite touching hor?
Haiz...but I afraid of my failing memory...so better write down first before I thought that is just an illusion of mine.
The morale of the story is having a caring friend can brighten up your day and may worth a lifetime of happy memory.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
I want a girl ...
I want a girl that have the kind hearted look and is really kind hearted.
I want a girl that will love my mother like how I love my mother.
I want a girl that will tell me how she think about me everyday.
I want a girl that will allow me to protect her when danger arrive.
I want a girl that believe I am the best decision she ever made.
I want a girl that will sing song to me every night.
I want a girl that is cheerful and know how to cherish happiness.
I want a girl that will go shopping with me in supermarket and bookstore.
I want a girl that will encourage and praise me everyday.
I want a girl that will provide solution instead of complaining at the problem.
I want a girl that will cook for me everyday so that I can know she happy or sad everyday.
I want a girl that will eat my food and say she want more.
I want a girl that will laugh at my jokes and ignore other people criticism.
I want a girl that is smart enough to know that I am not a flirt.
I want a girl that will tease me a lot.
I want a girl that have confident in my decision making and will stick to me even my decision goes wrong.
I want a girl that love kids a lot and don't mind me being playful.
I want a girl that love me a little bit more than I love her.
I want a girl that want to be that girl.
I want a girl that will love my mother like how I love my mother.
I want a girl that will tell me how she think about me everyday.
I want a girl that will allow me to protect her when danger arrive.
I want a girl that believe I am the best decision she ever made.
I want a girl that will sing song to me every night.
I want a girl that is cheerful and know how to cherish happiness.
I want a girl that will go shopping with me in supermarket and bookstore.
I want a girl that will encourage and praise me everyday.
I want a girl that will provide solution instead of complaining at the problem.
I want a girl that will cook for me everyday so that I can know she happy or sad everyday.
I want a girl that will eat my food and say she want more.
I want a girl that will laugh at my jokes and ignore other people criticism.
I want a girl that is smart enough to know that I am not a flirt.
I want a girl that will tease me a lot.
I want a girl that have confident in my decision making and will stick to me even my decision goes wrong.
I want a girl that love kids a lot and don't mind me being playful.
I want a girl that love me a little bit more than I love her.
I want a girl that want to be that girl.
Recall My Life
3 Years of SP life, as I recall, it is full of fun and new experiences and is not about mugging at all. Education should be this way.
2 Years of NS life, as I recall, it is about learning a higher level skill of time-management, stress-handling, problem-solving, mutual understanding and forging friendship.
1 Year of Uni life, as I recall, it is about teamwork and self-learning and having a group of friends to go throughs those difficult times. At least a month of pure mugging. Great to have God blessing and family & friends support.
0 Year of Working life. That why I have to think and plan now. Before I grow old and only to regret that young never work hard enough for what I truly love.
Now, what I have, will change eventually. But I must remember to strive for my dream and be grateful for every small happiness in life.
I have fulfill many little dream of mine. Some dream that I thoughts I will have never has a chance to fulfill but I did. I fall then I stand then I fall then I stand. As long as I keep trying. I will fulfill the big dream of mine. The dream that no one dream of.
2 Years of NS life, as I recall, it is about learning a higher level skill of time-management, stress-handling, problem-solving, mutual understanding and forging friendship.
1 Year of Uni life, as I recall, it is about teamwork and self-learning and having a group of friends to go throughs those difficult times. At least a month of pure mugging. Great to have God blessing and family & friends support.
0 Year of Working life. That why I have to think and plan now. Before I grow old and only to regret that young never work hard enough for what I truly love.
Now, what I have, will change eventually. But I must remember to strive for my dream and be grateful for every small happiness in life.
I have fulfill many little dream of mine. Some dream that I thoughts I will have never has a chance to fulfill but I did. I fall then I stand then I fall then I stand. As long as I keep trying. I will fulfill the big dream of mine. The dream that no one dream of.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Map to Happiness
Recently I been thinking a lot, normally I already think a lot, so you can imagine what can happen if I think a lot a lot. I will end up confused and lost.
When I am lost or confuse with which direction to take. I will look at map or see my iphone Google Map. So suddenly I have this idea, life will be great if we have a map that point us to our happiness. Somebody might say we have the map and it called Holy Bible.
Bible does give me a peace of mind but I can't find much happiness from it. I have no idea why. Sometime via events, I could feel love from God, family and friends. But sometime I just felt lost again.
So I start to think of which direction I should go? Does it mean that if certain area in life look sad or depress I should avoid it at all cost? Because happiness is unlikely to held in that direction?
Then I saw this sentence "Happiness is not simply the absence of despair. It is an affirmative state in which our lives have both meaning and pleasure."
I realise that I often have the moment of happiness after a long period of hardship. For an example: The sense of relief after week of exams and simple happy feeling of knowing that there are friends around me that will support and catch me if I fall. The ability to fall and stand strong again and forgive myself of what I have done in the past, via time I am happy again.
We are what we do. If we constantly do good deed, make other happy, we will be happy too. Kindness is the most important virtue. To share and to give, allow one to get happy via knowing that he has help other from saddness and despair.
The three components of happiness are something to do, someone to love, and something to look forward to.
Normally, the thing you want to do, need lot of money. Then we start to find money, then we got money but forgot what we want to do initially.
Normally, someone to love, the one you love don't love you, the person who love you, you don't love, after you lost that person that you start to regret and realise you love that person. I am blind to love.
Normally, something to look forward to, take lot of time. I look forward that my exam ended quickly, it did but I am lost. I look forward that my final year project will end successfully then I start to worry that I will lost again on finding my carreer path? Probably I going to be lost again.
It might be better that we are lost sometime.
When we lost, we look and think.
When we think, we recall and picture get clear.
I imagine myself being a kindergarten teacher, teach a class of kids on what I want to share with them, then happily go home and happily wake up and wish to share my teaching with the kids again. At home chat with my mom, end of the month, get salary and treat family and friends dinner. Then repeat this rountine til I retire.
But that is imagination after all. My life shouldn't be so simple.
My map is bigger than I thought.
When I am lost or confuse with which direction to take. I will look at map or see my iphone Google Map. So suddenly I have this idea, life will be great if we have a map that point us to our happiness. Somebody might say we have the map and it called Holy Bible.
Bible does give me a peace of mind but I can't find much happiness from it. I have no idea why. Sometime via events, I could feel love from God, family and friends. But sometime I just felt lost again.
So I start to think of which direction I should go? Does it mean that if certain area in life look sad or depress I should avoid it at all cost? Because happiness is unlikely to held in that direction?
Then I saw this sentence "Happiness is not simply the absence of despair. It is an affirmative state in which our lives have both meaning and pleasure."
I realise that I often have the moment of happiness after a long period of hardship. For an example: The sense of relief after week of exams and simple happy feeling of knowing that there are friends around me that will support and catch me if I fall. The ability to fall and stand strong again and forgive myself of what I have done in the past, via time I am happy again.
We are what we do. If we constantly do good deed, make other happy, we will be happy too. Kindness is the most important virtue. To share and to give, allow one to get happy via knowing that he has help other from saddness and despair.
The three components of happiness are something to do, someone to love, and something to look forward to.
Normally, the thing you want to do, need lot of money. Then we start to find money, then we got money but forgot what we want to do initially.
Normally, someone to love, the one you love don't love you, the person who love you, you don't love, after you lost that person that you start to regret and realise you love that person. I am blind to love.
Normally, something to look forward to, take lot of time. I look forward that my exam ended quickly, it did but I am lost. I look forward that my final year project will end successfully then I start to worry that I will lost again on finding my carreer path? Probably I going to be lost again.
It might be better that we are lost sometime.
When we lost, we look and think.
When we think, we recall and picture get clear.
I imagine myself being a kindergarten teacher, teach a class of kids on what I want to share with them, then happily go home and happily wake up and wish to share my teaching with the kids again. At home chat with my mom, end of the month, get salary and treat family and friends dinner. Then repeat this rountine til I retire.
But that is imagination after all. My life shouldn't be so simple.
My map is bigger than I thought.
Monday, March 08, 2010
Information Age
Today is Monday, March 8, 2010.
We lived in the Age of Information. Whoever has most informations, most accurate or latest information, and know how to use the informations like nobody else. He can rise in power.
In Ancient times, if anyone who have the knowledge of accurate astronomy or calender information, he can predict cosmic events such as meteor shower, eclipse. Normal people will awe of the person prediction skill and give them high ranks and think they are favor by Gods. Having higher education and wisdom, you command higher power. Students don't know answer, they pay money to teacher to teach them. Teachers, Doctors, Professors, Inventors, Writers. They change the world with their knowledge and creativity.
With the power of Internet, the ultimate platform for accelerating the flow of information. This generation has a pool of shared knowledge like wikipedia. But many information in Internet can be misleading, inaccurate. So if one day you see people saying JJ is a flirt, they are NOT refering to me but the singer and if you see people say JJ is talented, they are NOT refering to the singer but to me :D.
Although online information are more 'fresh' compare to newspaper and radio. We have to spent lot and lot of time to filter them. In the end, no one care, we just use information online and assume they are the fact.
Let say one day, I create lot of information saying there dark cloud in the sky are the products of gather substances cause by smokers,vehicles,factories and human evil thoughts. Water that fall from the dark clouds is actually the Earth's Tear.
By making my information appear on wiki and first three pages of google search, people get confuse then give up and accept it as fact.
When people start complaining why weather so hot, I simply reply that Earth have give up on human race and decide to stop crying and get real angry. The only solution to this, is to say more jokes and make Earth laugh until cry.
Based on Edward de Bono's Six Thinking Hats, there are six different kinds of information.
Questions (White)
- considering purely what information is available, what are the facts?
Emotions (Red)
- instinctive gut reaction or statements of emotional feeling (but not any justification)
Bad points judgment (Black)
- logic applied to identifying flaws or barriers, seeking mismatch
Good points judgment (Yellow)
- logic applied to identifying benefits, seeking harmony
Creativity (Green)
- statements of provocation and investigation, seeing where a thought goes
Thinking (Blue)
- thinking about thinking
Anyway below is the diagram of a small of potion of our Internet map, quite pretty hor.
We lived in the Age of Information. Whoever has most informations, most accurate or latest information, and know how to use the informations like nobody else. He can rise in power.
In Ancient times, if anyone who have the knowledge of accurate astronomy or calender information, he can predict cosmic events such as meteor shower, eclipse. Normal people will awe of the person prediction skill and give them high ranks and think they are favor by Gods. Having higher education and wisdom, you command higher power. Students don't know answer, they pay money to teacher to teach them. Teachers, Doctors, Professors, Inventors, Writers. They change the world with their knowledge and creativity.
With the power of Internet, the ultimate platform for accelerating the flow of information. This generation has a pool of shared knowledge like wikipedia. But many information in Internet can be misleading, inaccurate. So if one day you see people saying JJ is a flirt, they are NOT refering to me but the singer and if you see people say JJ is talented, they are NOT refering to the singer but to me :D.
Although online information are more 'fresh' compare to newspaper and radio. We have to spent lot and lot of time to filter them. In the end, no one care, we just use information online and assume they are the fact.
Let say one day, I create lot of information saying there dark cloud in the sky are the products of gather substances cause by smokers,vehicles,factories and human evil thoughts. Water that fall from the dark clouds is actually the Earth's Tear.
By making my information appear on wiki and first three pages of google search, people get confuse then give up and accept it as fact.
When people start complaining why weather so hot, I simply reply that Earth have give up on human race and decide to stop crying and get real angry. The only solution to this, is to say more jokes and make Earth laugh until cry.
Based on Edward de Bono's Six Thinking Hats, there are six different kinds of information.
Questions (White)
- considering purely what information is available, what are the facts?
Emotions (Red)
- instinctive gut reaction or statements of emotional feeling (but not any justification)
Bad points judgment (Black)
- logic applied to identifying flaws or barriers, seeking mismatch
Good points judgment (Yellow)
- logic applied to identifying benefits, seeking harmony
Creativity (Green)
- statements of provocation and investigation, seeing where a thought goes
Thinking (Blue)
- thinking about thinking
Anyway below is the diagram of a small of potion of our Internet map, quite pretty hor.
Wednesday, December 02, 2009
Monday, November 16, 2009
2012
This is my 95th post.
In 2006, I did a presentation on 2012, It is not a very well-done presentation, in fact, it can be the worst presentation I did in SP Astro. I spent less than 4 hours to complete the presentation slides and at that moment I am having my final year internship at Nokia too. Fail to plan is plan to fail but at least it means I always have a plan in mind. Haha.
I learn about 2012 not from others, but from myself. I studied Maya Calender and their culture, I briefly learn about I-Ching (Book of Changes) and use this book to do fortune-telling for others. It is an amazing book which contains everything you can think of...range from education, food, UFO, sex and military to anything you can think of and best part it is written few thousand years ago. I read a bit of Bible.
Just I was bathing, I start to realize that there is many cycle in life, 60minutes cycle, 24 hours cycle, 1 week cycle, 12 months cycle. End of a cycle is the beginning of the next cycle. History sometimes repeat itself too. Ice age, World war.
The more story I read about, the more I am amazed and I felt I have know very little things in life. The more I learn, the more confuse I am. Having too many different views, perspective, ideas. It will make your thinking process longer...sometime I spent so much time thinking, I lose track of time. Instead of enjoying the moment, I am worrying about the future.
In anyway, I am satisfy with my life as I have many moments with you. That is the little special moment that different from each cycle. Every cycle has a story to tell. Although people end up only can remember the first moment and the last moment of every story. Maybe the process is not for us to remember but for us to experience and enjoy.
From now on, I have 1131 days left or 3 years 1 month 5 days. If the end of this cycle is 2012, 21 Dec.
This can be the last post of my blog...or it is just another post of my blog.
Same for our every day life.
In 2006, I did a presentation on 2012, It is not a very well-done presentation, in fact, it can be the worst presentation I did in SP Astro. I spent less than 4 hours to complete the presentation slides and at that moment I am having my final year internship at Nokia too. Fail to plan is plan to fail but at least it means I always have a plan in mind. Haha.
I learn about 2012 not from others, but from myself. I studied Maya Calender and their culture, I briefly learn about I-Ching (Book of Changes) and use this book to do fortune-telling for others. It is an amazing book which contains everything you can think of...range from education, food, UFO, sex and military to anything you can think of and best part it is written few thousand years ago. I read a bit of Bible.
Just I was bathing, I start to realize that there is many cycle in life, 60minutes cycle, 24 hours cycle, 1 week cycle, 12 months cycle. End of a cycle is the beginning of the next cycle. History sometimes repeat itself too. Ice age, World war.
The more story I read about, the more I am amazed and I felt I have know very little things in life. The more I learn, the more confuse I am. Having too many different views, perspective, ideas. It will make your thinking process longer...sometime I spent so much time thinking, I lose track of time. Instead of enjoying the moment, I am worrying about the future.
In anyway, I am satisfy with my life as I have many moments with you. That is the little special moment that different from each cycle. Every cycle has a story to tell. Although people end up only can remember the first moment and the last moment of every story. Maybe the process is not for us to remember but for us to experience and enjoy.
From now on, I have 1131 days left or 3 years 1 month 5 days. If the end of this cycle is 2012, 21 Dec.
This can be the last post of my blog...or it is just another post of my blog.
Same for our every day life.
Friday, November 06, 2009
Other Before Self.

Other Before Self.
This is my primary school motto. Primary school leh!
This is so difficult to achieve!
In this competitive society and somewhat selfish education system.
Our education system sort of telling us that we always have to be ahead of others.
Be the best. Only top 5% can get distinction. Only top three winner have trophy.
So much peer pressure, yet we have to let other before self?
Yes, my moral value tells me that I should do "Other before self" action.
But today I find it very difficult to do it and I am very sad about myself.
Tomorrow I have assignment to hand out. My friends ask me to help them.
I wanted to! But it is like mud Buddha cross river sia.
They ask me question that I have problem solving.
They ask me to do things that they suppose to know and do it like a week ago.
I ask myself should I help them?
My first thought in mind, huh?! can they make up their mind? can they fix their problem? can they stop thinking I am genius who know everything that they don't know.
I hate those feeling and their face expression. When they ask me a question, then I was like okay that problem I haven't encounter but I not sure my solution is right or not. So I will reply them, hmm, I don't know leh.
Then they give me those kind of look, like I selfish I don't want to teach. They give me all kind of look, surprise, shock, disappointed, ignored, blur. Some more power, ask me question liao...then I say I don't know...then they simply continue their work...kaoz...not even a "thank" reply sia...can they know the situation or not. I am a student too leh...not lecturer leh...I here to learn not teach leh.
Haiz...then I think and think and think. Why am I so angry? I am angry of their stupidity or I am angry on my selfishness or my stupidity too. Suddenly an answer come to my mind.
I am sad that I not as capable as other thought. I am angry that why individual does not take up their own responsibility. I will change all this crap and nonsense.
I will spent my time learning more on my major. I will shikai my intelligence first.
I must be more hardworking. I will pray that everyone can be responsible for their role. I will pray that people can wake up from their laziness. I will help other before self. Yes, I will. Although I might end up sacrifice myself but as long as I still hold a breath, I will create miracle and help other even they may not deserve my help. They are weak hence I must help. I hope the strong will help me too.
Hope "Other before self" will not be a bullshit idea in this society, this generation. Hope I will not be the throw behind, then those people in front of me saying "(Other before self - OBs) Oohhh Beee Good lah"
You may ask how the chart above related to this topic.
I don't know. I just find it interesting.
Monday, November 02, 2009
Freedom
Freedom - The idea of being free. 自由
Freedom from Fear.
Freedom from Want.
Freedom is the right to act as you wish.
Act according to true self.
To attain true freedom. It is not about conquering the world.
It is all about conquering the fear, lust and anger.
The power to limit your fear and want.
To have freedom is to be independence and have self-reliance.
Being the Ruler of your inner Kingdom,
You must free your kingdom from worries, anger and saddness.
To free other, you must free yourself first.
So, Are you free now?
Saturday, October 17, 2009
The Expectancy Theory
When the Green Bean Experiment started on 30 Sept. I never expect to learn so much from this experiment.One week after the experiment started, I took the pictures and wrote a topic on "The Growing Process". These three photos were taken at 14 Oct which was two weeks after the experiment just started.
During the Growing Process, I expected the special bean 1 which never root itself and try to reach out for the sky, will not have much progress. The outcome of that bean is 80% wasted, more or less unable to grow anymore.
The special bean 2, which is the bean that unable to grow well due to unhealthy bean. It surprise me with pretty result. It end up manage to have something that rest of the green beans don't have. It have three leaves instead of two. This makes me realise poor and slow start does not determine the result.
Due to lack of experiment funding, this experiment have to be cancel. After all, I am surprise that green bean can live so long...two weeks plus and haven't die. So I replanted the 7 green bean to the soil ground below my house. 2 days passed, I haven't check what have happen to them. Hopefully still growing? Or maybe eaten by snail?
Haha, but what surprise me most is that quite a lot of people read my blog and thank for Guo Xin and Brendan for writing me love letter...haha I am touched...Thank Dan Dan and Peiwen for commenting my blog too. Yeah! Have a great weekend everyone! Bye.

Thursday, October 15, 2009
Dad is back!
I am happy to see my dad is back home!
Pray that his health will be better and better each day!
Pray that his health will be better and better each day!
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Achievement VS Relationship
Achievement VS Relationship
Which is more important?
Relationship.
Why?
Because achievement is only the result of your hard work or the end product created by your ability. Medals, Records and Certificate is simply to prove your capability to people who don't have time to know you.
Relationship is only strengthen via investment of time. The more time you spent with the person, the stronger the relationship it is. Relationship is almost the only thing that is as precious as time, if not it maybe much more valuable than time. Why?
Time is linear. But relationship is not, the growth on relationship may increase exponentially via memorable event. As long as we live, we will have time. So most of time, we simply try to make full use of time but relationship is the driving force of our life.
Why we live or why we want more time, it is simply because we want to maintain or having better relationship with family/friends or want to create more relationship.
But the idea on spending more time with family/friends seem to fade off.
People starting to complain 24 hours a days is not enough, but they end up spending more time on preparation of exam, in front of TV, stalking at Facebook, playing routine games, having self-entertainment, having more relationship with the money.
It is not wrong to spend time on things that mention above. Spending time on self-entertainment can be consider as maintaining a self-relationship which is good to keep yourself happy.
The problem is time distribution...when you over-spending time on non-living things instead of living human...you simply feel alone. Life without achievement is okay, but if life without a single relationship is terrible.
The day that you are on your deathbed, will you want to see your medals, money, games all around you...or you will want to have lot of family members and friends around you?
So the last question is "Do you want to have a better relationship with me?"
Haha...that sound weird...but my ang moh cui what to do leh?
Which is more important?
Relationship.
Why?
Because achievement is only the result of your hard work or the end product created by your ability. Medals, Records and Certificate is simply to prove your capability to people who don't have time to know you.
Relationship is only strengthen via investment of time. The more time you spent with the person, the stronger the relationship it is. Relationship is almost the only thing that is as precious as time, if not it maybe much more valuable than time. Why?
Time is linear. But relationship is not, the growth on relationship may increase exponentially via memorable event. As long as we live, we will have time. So most of time, we simply try to make full use of time but relationship is the driving force of our life.
Why we live or why we want more time, it is simply because we want to maintain or having better relationship with family/friends or want to create more relationship.
But the idea on spending more time with family/friends seem to fade off.
People starting to complain 24 hours a days is not enough, but they end up spending more time on preparation of exam, in front of TV, stalking at Facebook, playing routine games, having self-entertainment, having more relationship with the money.
It is not wrong to spend time on things that mention above. Spending time on self-entertainment can be consider as maintaining a self-relationship which is good to keep yourself happy.
The problem is time distribution...when you over-spending time on non-living things instead of living human...you simply feel alone. Life without achievement is okay, but if life without a single relationship is terrible.
The day that you are on your deathbed, will you want to see your medals, money, games all around you...or you will want to have lot of family members and friends around you?
So the last question is "Do you want to have a better relationship with me?"
Haha...that sound weird...but my ang moh cui what to do leh?
Bumblebee Flight Story
According to 20th century folklore, the laws of aerodynamics prove that the bumblebee should be incapable of flight, as it does not have the capacity (in terms of wing size or beats per second) to achieve flight with the degree of wing loading necessary. Not being aware of scientists 'proving' it cannot fly, the bumblebee succeeds under "the power of its own ignorance".
"One shouldn't be surprised that the results of the calculations don't square with reality".
So how did bumblebee fly?
Bees beat their wings approximately 200 times a second, which is 10–20 times as fast as nerve impulses can fire. They achieve this because their thorax muscles do not expand and contract on each nerve firing, but rather vibrate like a plucked rubber band.
Scientist try to prove that bumblebee can't fly but bumblebee simply don't care and fly in it own way. So when people tell you that lot of things cannot be solved, they are actually telling you that "A lot of things they assume cannot solved". You just have to solve it in your own way and surprise them with the reality result.
"One shouldn't be surprised that the results of the calculations don't square with reality".
So how did bumblebee fly?
Bees beat their wings approximately 200 times a second, which is 10–20 times as fast as nerve impulses can fire. They achieve this because their thorax muscles do not expand and contract on each nerve firing, but rather vibrate like a plucked rubber band.
Scientist try to prove that bumblebee can't fly but bumblebee simply don't care and fly in it own way. So when people tell you that lot of things cannot be solved, they are actually telling you that "A lot of things they assume cannot solved". You just have to solve it in your own way and surprise them with the reality result.
The Power of Can't
"If you think you can, you can. If you think you can't you cant. Either way you're right."
So positive thinking and attitude leads you to positive life experience. Don't you feel great to imagine yourself as a capable person who can overcome ANY kind of obstacle in life.
Face your problem...laugh at them...divide and conquer them and terrorized the next problem...make problems in your life so scare of you...that they will keep themselves away from you. After you solved all your own problem then you feel so shiok about saving yourself...the feeling is so high that you want to save other...and you create superman attitude...spread this attitude...then you will have super heroes team. No more worries in life. That is a wonderful idea right?
But somehow there will be someone or something pop out say you can't. Prove them wrong with action and tell them "yes, you can't but i can".
"Poor people and lazy people use the word can't more often than successful people. They use the word can't because it's easier than saying can. If you say you can't do something, you don't have to do it...even if you can."
Do you feel frustrated when you ask a person in charge...a simple question like "Can this problem be solved?" Then they just replied "Can't". Kaoz...how can that be...all problems in life can be solved or at least reduced or maybe at worst you have to adapt to it. It is so depressing for me to tell people that I can't solve their problem...but at least I will try to refer them to another smarter person.
"It is easier to keep working hard than to change."
Why? Because human like safe and stable life. Human don't mind doing a same things ten thousands times then make it a routine in their life and slowly it become a habit. I am human too. But I know time is super precious...I want my life to filled with new experiences which means experiencing lot of new changes. If you can find a new changes in life and makes your life much easier why not? But don't look for the unrealistic shortcut which was created for the greedy and lazy.
"The word can't make strong people weak, blinds people who can see, saddens happy people, turns brave people into cowards, robs a genius of their brilliance, causes rich people to think poorly, and limits the achievements of that great person living inside us all."
Yes. We can. We will have a better future.
So positive thinking and attitude leads you to positive life experience. Don't you feel great to imagine yourself as a capable person who can overcome ANY kind of obstacle in life.
Face your problem...laugh at them...divide and conquer them and terrorized the next problem...make problems in your life so scare of you...that they will keep themselves away from you. After you solved all your own problem then you feel so shiok about saving yourself...the feeling is so high that you want to save other...and you create superman attitude...spread this attitude...then you will have super heroes team. No more worries in life. That is a wonderful idea right?
But somehow there will be someone or something pop out say you can't. Prove them wrong with action and tell them "yes, you can't but i can".
"Poor people and lazy people use the word can't more often than successful people. They use the word can't because it's easier than saying can. If you say you can't do something, you don't have to do it...even if you can."
Do you feel frustrated when you ask a person in charge...a simple question like "Can this problem be solved?" Then they just replied "Can't". Kaoz...how can that be...all problems in life can be solved or at least reduced or maybe at worst you have to adapt to it. It is so depressing for me to tell people that I can't solve their problem...but at least I will try to refer them to another smarter person.
"It is easier to keep working hard than to change."
Why? Because human like safe and stable life. Human don't mind doing a same things ten thousands times then make it a routine in their life and slowly it become a habit. I am human too. But I know time is super precious...I want my life to filled with new experiences which means experiencing lot of new changes. If you can find a new changes in life and makes your life much easier why not? But don't look for the unrealistic shortcut which was created for the greedy and lazy.
"The word can't make strong people weak, blinds people who can see, saddens happy people, turns brave people into cowards, robs a genius of their brilliance, causes rich people to think poorly, and limits the achievements of that great person living inside us all."
Yes. We can. We will have a better future.
Wednesday, October 07, 2009
The Growing Process
These three images show the result of growing green beans for one week.The first image is a close-up on the root of the plants.
5 out of 7 manage to have a full grown.
The only 2 beans that can't grow fully have several reason.
The 1st bean didn't grow much because the root is growing upward instead of downward to get root into the cotton. It is a result of being too eager to grow up but end up have weak foundation due to lack of proper direction.
The 2nd bean unable to grow well due to poor start, it is sort of the less fortunate bean which does not have a healthy bean as others.
But it still able to grow better than the 1st bean.
The third image is the third day of the green bean growing process.
By the way, no matter how much theory I write on this blog.
The green bean simply don't care at all and just keep growing.
So in life, I think no one should let other judge them and decide their future for them.
Just Live It.
So for now, still have no dead plant...so the experiment will go on.
Due to my heavy study workload, I will stop blogging for a while. Good Night!
The purpose of life is to fight maturity.

Tuesday, October 06, 2009
Rise of Technology

This is just a simple 8 GB thumb drive.
But it is actually not very simple device in ten years ago.
If this device was found ten years ago, it should be easily worth $1000 plus. Why?
Imagine the days that we spent around 40cents to buy diskette which is 3.4mb only. People invest hundred of dollar on ZipDisk. So this device can easily worth $1000 plus, ten years ago. But currently it only cost $28.
With this $28 device, you can try type all the girl contacts you know and store it in a notepad form. If you can fill this device fully with the notepad that contain the girl contacts. You might have whole world girls contacts number, if not, at least ASEAN.
I still remember ten years ago...my computer like have less than 4GB capacity and i always envy my friend able be to play those good quality game that need at least 1GB installation space. But now I have 500GB storage space and install some new game...you might need around 5GB. But this 8GB device still can store it, then I have this thinking....why not I have a portable Windows OS and it is possible.. Actually there is a lot of portable software out there.
Computing Growth is like Exponential growth which is like human and virus growth...which is a bit scary...there is a lot of things we use today...is build by machine. It is because it need high detail, precise and speed to build advanced microchip.
But I still believe human is more intelligent computer...why you might ask. Because only human can dream and imagine. Imagination is far more valuable than knowledge. The more I understand on computing technology the more I am amazed by human mind...like how image,audio and video is convert into string of code and sent via wireless and another part of the world receive it and watch the video.
The technology behind is the work of genius...lot of genius spent lot of time...to make current IT world possible. But some technology is still not widely used...due to human nature...resistance toward changes. JPEG2k is a good example.
By the way, there is a girl more pretty than 常在心 ask me not to miss her...how is that possible? Silly girl.
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