他已去世两年.
我和母亲能有今天的好日子,全靠我爸.
希望他在天堂过的好.
那天母亲哭了,让我觉的我没做好本分.
应该花多点时间带她出去,散散心,看看世界.
是时候有个新的目标了.
Monday, January 02, 2012
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Story of Rust
Once upon a time, there is this "rich kid" who love to collect miniature weapon (real size weapon is too expensive for the "rich kid").
He spent lot of time (1 years plus) and money (~ $1000) to buy special edition comics so he can collect the miniature weapon that comes with the comics.
First three days, he spent lot of time looking at the miniature weapon and feel awesome being the owner of so many miniature weapon.
Few days later, Mr Dust come and visit the league of little weapons (LoLw).
Mr Dust like to stick with LoLw, but Rich Kid took notice and chase off Mr Dust.
LoLw is once saved again by Mr Rich Kid. (Previously was disturb by Mr Itchy Hand).
But Mr Rich Kid got overwhelm by studies and beauties outside.
He spent lesser and lesser time with LoLw.
Days by days passed.
8 years later.
Mr Rich Kid return to visit LoLw.
It was too late.
At a glance, Mr Rich Kid thought LoLw is doing fine.
But they are not. After careful observation from Mr Rich Kid.
Mr Rich Kid realise that the hidden surface of LoLw got attacked by Mr Rust.
Mr Rust is not as harmless as Mr Dust, although it is just a letter different.
Mr Rust has harm the poor LoLw for the past 8 years.
Mr Rich Kid try his best to get rid of Mr Rust by finding Miss Water, Lady Lemon, Mr Tissue and even Professor Sun.
All the efforts went into vain.
Even though most of Mr Rust has retreat from LoLw.
LoLw got hurt, their injuries can be healed but the scar is always there.
Part of LoLw is lost forever.
Morale of the story.
Cherish is not about keeping it safe at a corner without constant caring.
On surface, you may thought that your precious are safe and happy.
As time passes, your lack of concern may has cause your precious permanent damages.
He spent lot of time (1 years plus) and money (~ $1000) to buy special edition comics so he can collect the miniature weapon that comes with the comics.
First three days, he spent lot of time looking at the miniature weapon and feel awesome being the owner of so many miniature weapon.
Few days later, Mr Dust come and visit the league of little weapons (LoLw).
Mr Dust like to stick with LoLw, but Rich Kid took notice and chase off Mr Dust.
LoLw is once saved again by Mr Rich Kid. (Previously was disturb by Mr Itchy Hand).
But Mr Rich Kid got overwhelm by studies and beauties outside.
He spent lesser and lesser time with LoLw.
Days by days passed.
8 years later.
Mr Rich Kid return to visit LoLw.
It was too late.
At a glance, Mr Rich Kid thought LoLw is doing fine.
But they are not. After careful observation from Mr Rich Kid.
Mr Rich Kid realise that the hidden surface of LoLw got attacked by Mr Rust.
Mr Rust is not as harmless as Mr Dust, although it is just a letter different.
Mr Rust has harm the poor LoLw for the past 8 years.
Mr Rich Kid try his best to get rid of Mr Rust by finding Miss Water, Lady Lemon, Mr Tissue and even Professor Sun.
All the efforts went into vain.
Even though most of Mr Rust has retreat from LoLw.
LoLw got hurt, their injuries can be healed but the scar is always there.
Part of LoLw is lost forever.
Morale of the story.
Cherish is not about keeping it safe at a corner without constant caring.
On surface, you may thought that your precious are safe and happy.
As time passes, your lack of concern may has cause your precious permanent damages.
Monday, July 04, 2011
Happy 24th Birthday!
Time pass so fast sia and long time I didn't update my blog.
So fast I am 24 years old liao, received many birthday wishes around 100 plus?
But mostly facebook wall post and few SMS, somehow it is getting more and more rare to received birthday sms and it seem to become a miracle if you received birthday card.
So what birthday present I get leh?
Bottle of stars! Wallet! Cakes! Fan! Pillow! Poker card! Red Packets!
Recently I am searching for happiness, thinking that will I be more happy during my birthday than usual day.
Somehow the answer is no leh...then I start to realize happiness comes from within and it is not something you can obtain. That means no matter how much money you have or what cool stuff you got, those can only temporary give you some shiokness. I think I need to focus more character development and be contented with what I have then when I become calm and steady. I won't feel so empty at times.
Man at young need to resist lust.
Man at my age need to resist competition.
Man at old need to learn to let go.
I just realize I focus too much on social status...time to spent more time with friends and family.
Sunday, February 06, 2011
Chinese New Year 2011
Gong Xi Fa Cai !
So fast is Chinese New Year again !
Failed to 守岁, only manage to stay awake til 3 AM.
This year, I rebonded my hair for CNY for an image change.
But somehow the image make me more "evil" looking...time to learn how to style my hair like Cloud.
I ask my younger relative what is the meaning of CNY, they say it is all about winning all my money, lol, don't know what they are thinking.
Again, CNY 2011 has the same relative, same hong bao, same questions. Of course my answer is still the same...yup I am still single. But at least they look quite shocked when I tell them I graduated liao. Hope to see their shock face when I tell them I own a company in near future.
Wish everyone enjoy their Chinese New Year, don't eat too much heaty stuff ar...must remember to drink more water!
So fast is Chinese New Year again !
Failed to 守岁, only manage to stay awake til 3 AM.
This year, I rebonded my hair for CNY for an image change.
But somehow the image make me more "evil" looking...time to learn how to style my hair like Cloud.
I ask my younger relative what is the meaning of CNY, they say it is all about winning all my money, lol, don't know what they are thinking.
Again, CNY 2011 has the same relative, same hong bao, same questions. Of course my answer is still the same...yup I am still single. But at least they look quite shocked when I tell them I graduated liao. Hope to see their shock face when I tell them I own a company in near future.
Wish everyone enjoy their Chinese New Year, don't eat too much heaty stuff ar...must remember to drink more water!
Friday, December 31, 2010
Winter Break 2010
I am so busy partying,camping and enjoying my life until I have no time to blog.
Before my winter break start, there are many things I look forward to.
- Gathering/Outing with friends.
- Friend Birthdays Celebration.
- SIM CF Christmas Party.
- Christmas Eve Celebration.
- SPACE Camp.
- New Year Eve Celebration.
- Funomynite 2011.
- SIM CF Camp.
Now, half of the things that I look forward has passed. So far it is better than I expected. It is good to be alive.
Recently, I have been thinking about my dad last word too. He did not set any target for me to achieve, sometime I am thinking it is good or bad. Every time I watch drama, the parent in the show will want their child to be doctor, lawyer, police or something like that. But my dad didn't set any target for me, maybe in that way it makes me able to uncap my potential to sky high. Anyway I also have very high expectation of myself, so maybe I shouldn't worry about what my dad want me to become.
Sometime I feel like dreaming when I am actually living. I lead a simply life now. Do what I like, eat what I want, love what I love. It seems to good to be true. Maybe I should praise my life abit ar...well done life! keep it up!
It is not easy to be you.
Before my winter break start, there are many things I look forward to.
- Gathering/Outing with friends.
- Friend Birthdays Celebration.
- SIM CF Christmas Party.
- Christmas Eve Celebration.
- SPACE Camp.
- New Year Eve Celebration.
- Funomynite 2011.
- SIM CF Camp.
Now, half of the things that I look forward has passed. So far it is better than I expected. It is good to be alive.
Recently, I have been thinking about my dad last word too. He did not set any target for me to achieve, sometime I am thinking it is good or bad. Every time I watch drama, the parent in the show will want their child to be doctor, lawyer, police or something like that. But my dad didn't set any target for me, maybe in that way it makes me able to uncap my potential to sky high. Anyway I also have very high expectation of myself, so maybe I shouldn't worry about what my dad want me to become.
Sometime I feel like dreaming when I am actually living. I lead a simply life now. Do what I like, eat what I want, love what I love. It seems to good to be true. Maybe I should praise my life abit ar...well done life! keep it up!
It is not easy to be you.
Saturday, November 06, 2010
Losing focus
I have been losing focus recently.
No idea why, not sure what I should do.
Important things I end up not doing them.
Don't feel like playing games too.
Feel like eating a lot although I not hungry.
I feel like losing myself too.
Hope all these are temporary.
Feel like talking to someone.
No phone call, no sms...
Perhaps this is the peace that I have been wishing for.
Time to listen to music and read books.
No idea why, not sure what I should do.
Important things I end up not doing them.
Don't feel like playing games too.
Feel like eating a lot although I not hungry.
I feel like losing myself too.
Hope all these are temporary.
Feel like talking to someone.
No phone call, no sms...
Perhaps this is the peace that I have been wishing for.
Time to listen to music and read books.
Monday, November 01, 2010
Two Issues
There are two issues I wish to solve, Poverty and Aging Population.
True poverty is lack of education.
If education can come in a form of affordable or even free, this might able to solve the problem on health issue related, understand the number of choices in life and able to maximize one's potential.
Everyone should have the right to have proper education and lead a good life.
When one lead a good life, it is very likely that they will grow old eventually.
Aging population is the problem that the world is facing, this never happen in the past generation due to global disease attack and war causality. Because of peace and good medical support, people can live much longer than they used to have. This is a good thing but people see it negatively.
The solution is not to abandon them, but learn from their wisdom and experience.
It is true that when one get old, his/her ability will decrease but one's experience will still increase. Instead of abandon them in old folk home, we should think of ways to slow down the process that their ability start to decrease. Everyone should take up the responsibility of the elderly they have in the family. 家有一老,如有一宝.
Meanwhile, I will think of a solution to fix these two major problems that many countries are facing. My friend actually have a good idea of letting the senior citizen to setup schools to teach the young generation. I think I will think in that direction to provide the elderly a meaningful life that they can continue to lead on.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Making Friends in 21st Century
Welcome to the 21st Century...welcome.
Currently we are in the part of human history that technology has evolved faster than ever.
Mainly due to the shared knowledge across the globe - Internet.
Now we have popular social network like Facebook, MySpace, Twitter, Blogger, Tumblr, YouTube and many more.
By knowing someone name or their email address and having slightly more advanced IT skill, you can start your treasure hunting on that "someone" information and people who do that are called "Internet Creeper".
I just know that how creepy it is...Google is really a state of the art search engine.
If you want to be famous or let people to understand you easily via Internet. Feel free interconnect all your social network into one simple platform so that anyone with "average" IT skill can know a lot about you via Internet.
This somehow break the whole wonderful and magical moment of making friends. Before Internet is invented, people know each other via meeting in face to face, got introduce by another friends or matchmaker. You hardly know the person name or his/her contact number if you don't know any friends of his/her.
So sometime I have this feeling, let say today I go for a simple birthday party then I make some new friends. If one of the girls that I know from the party got to know my name and decide to "internet creep" me, then she will know many information from me via Facebook. My age, my birthday, my friends list, my occupation, my past education level, my achievement, my hobbies...if she found out my YouTube account, she will know what channel I subscribe to and what kind of media culture I am into it. If she lucky, she can even watch a video of mine. Then if she also know my blog then she will even get to know more about my recent thinking and past experiences. What if she is just a pretty, intelligent girl with high curiosity in me, because of how the social network portray me as a bad person then she just decided not to contact me in future. Of course, I don't really care about that since I don't think that I am a Saint too. But it is still a sad thing to happen just because of lack mutual understanding. It also feel weird that she can get so much information of mine without even me telling her anything except my name.
So what the point of knowing me better in the real life? In fact, there are many points to list out.
Point #1 - Understand my current self and ignore my history.
Point #2 - Validate my online social image with my real life image.
Point #3 - Simply to enjoy the moment of knowing each other better without using any other form of technology except being sincere to each other.
By understanding the pros and cons that technology has bring us.
I decide to do a reform in my life on my "online status" aspect.
By balancing the information I wish to remind myself and share with others and doesn't compromise my privacy and giving away my "story" too easy to the outside world.
No matter what Century we are in, we still have a freedom of choices to make if we willing to risk.
Friday, October 08, 2010
Gentlemanship
Recently, I want to improve my overall attitude toward life.
"People, like diamonds, have a basic market value, but it is only after they have been polished that the world will pay their real value."
- William Thourlby
Somehow, I manage to come across the word "Gentleman".
In current era, we often hear and use that word only in the opening of a presentation.
In the past, gentleman requires several qualities.
1. A Man of a good family.
2. Nobility in rank or personal qualities.
3. A Man with an income derived from property, a legacy or some other source.
(In simple term, he is very rich and did not need to work)
They have phrase like "to spend money like a gentleman" or "to conduct a business like a gentleman"
In both western & eastern culture, they encourage man to act like a gentleman or be a gentleman. Someone may able to make you a nobleman but no one can make you a gentleman.
The etiquette of a gentleman:
1. Always be polite - don't lower yourself to the level of person that you don't like.
2. Do not curse - it only show that you have no enough vocabulary.
3. Do not speak loudly - it only show that you can't reason without "brute force".
4. Do not lose your temper - keep cool at all time, good control over your emotion.
5. Do not stare - it show nothing but aggression.
6. Do not interrupt - it is a poor sign of etiquette.
7. Do not spit - that is an act of uncivilized .
8. Respect your elder - respect other as you would like them to respect you.
9. Do not laugh at others' mistake - it is a cruel act.
10. Wait for seating before eating - everyone should start dining at the same time.
The basics of chivalry:
1. Always open doors.
2. Help with her seat.
3. Give up your seat.
4. Stand at attention.
5. Give her your arm.
6. Ask if she needs anything.
The basics of good manners:
1. Don't flaunt your riches.
2. Never let others see you looking at your watches. - interpreted as boredom.
3. Never groom yourself in public.
4. Be punctual. - the greatest sign of respect.
5. Shake hands firmly.
6. Apply constant verbal grace.
7. Tip well and discreetly - 15% or no less than $10.
8. Project high moral values.
Behaving like a gentleman brings out the lady in every woman.
1. Be a gracious guest - thank the host or the most senior management.
2. Thank others - send handwritten thank-you notes for any gifts you receive.
3. Share your umbrella.
4. Cough thoughtfully.
5. Pay the bill discreetly.
6. Maintain eye contact.
7. Make introductions.
8. Engage people.
9. Follow the host's lead.
10. Never speak with food in your mouth.
11. Don't reach across someone.
12. Retrieve dropped items - bend at the knees, not from the waist.
13. Walk on the outside of a sidewalk. - if someone is going to be splashed, it will be you, not her.
孔子: 已所不欲,误施于人.
Wednesday, October 06, 2010
Saturday, October 02, 2010
The Grand Plan
I left 636 days to accomplish my grand plan.
This year is a fruitful year for me.
I learn many new skills, knowledge & techniques.
I also manage to know many new friends.
On 23 June 2010, I started to work hard for my initial aim.
My aim is to get into DigiPen-Ubisoft Professional Conversion Program for Game Designers.
The aim is not easy as they only have 10 students intake.
I started with taking up a modular course on Game Mechanics & Balance.
Enjoy the teaching over there and manage to make a few friends with same interests and passion.
Meanwhile, I work on my portfolio for the PCP for Game Designers.
The portfolio has many requirements.
1. Traditional Arts
2. Observational Analysis
3. Game Critique
4. Conceptual Development
This is just the beginning.
During the Game Mechanics & Balance modular course, I manage to learn to have better understanding in different core dynamics and how to balance a game. I also manage to create a few boardgames.
Right after I completed my modular course, I started with SP's Xbox 360 Game Development, manage to catch up with my juniors and learn about using C# on XNA Studio 3.1. Later on, I manage to self learn on converting XNA Studio 3.1 codes to XNA Studio 4.0 / Windows 7 Mobile.
Soon, I received email from DigiPen that my portfolio has been accepted and I have to go for their entrance exam. Their entrance exam is the longest exam I ever taken.
The exam lasted for two days (Saturday & Sunday), Exam period from 9am to 5pm each day.
Yes, so it is a total of 16 hours long exam. It required 8000 words.
After few days of waiting for the results. I passed my exam ! I was like so happy.
Then I received email from DigiPen & Ubisoft to go for their interview.
During DigiPen interview, I was nervous maybe I haven't done interview for quite awhile.
For Ubisoft interview, I was more well prepared and Ubisoft Company look great. People there is very friendly. After the interview, I really hope that I can work at there in the future.
After another few days of waiting, I received news that I got accept into the PCP for Game Designers on 30 September 2010.
The whole process from starting to plan for getting into DigiPen until I received the letter of acceptance. It took me exactly 99 days. Now, I know why people like to say wait long long.
I glad that I achieve my aim for 2010 if not all my hard work might go to drain, but i think the experience is still very worthwhile.
Now I shall plan for my next step.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Self Evaluation
Today is 19 September 2010, it is a good day to do self evaluation!
Relationship
-Family [A]
[A] stands for Always talking to my mother but i think should spent more quality time with her and my two sisters. I should visit my grandparents more often too.
-Friends [A]
[A] stands for actively make new friends but I also got keep in contact with old friends, although not all but I got tried to meet them le...haiz...maybe I should visit him soon too.
-Love [A]
[A] stands for Alone! Yeah, great to be single for nearly 10 years. I should celebrate anniversary with myself! But I forgot when is my last breakup, haha good that i didn't remember too, shall celebrate it with my birthday.
Health
-Body [B]
[B] stands for Balance! Because my weight don't change, no matter how much I eat, I am still as light as JJ. I think I must increase my numbers of meal or find a girlfriend that like to give me all the leftover food.
-Lifestyle [C]
[C] stands for Chaos! Because I sleep until I happy and I go to sleep when I am happy also, no system at all (actually got, happy go lucky system), I am thinking that my bio clock must be a digital version.
Financial
-Income [P]
[P] stands for Pathetic, I think is time that I go conquer the world.
-Protection [A]
[A] stands for Average, If anything happens to me, I got an average protection loh.
-Expenses [H]
[H] stands for Happy spending, in order to keep my happiness at the world class level. I will do many self investment since it is the best investment ever and has the highest potential of return.
-Education [A]
[A] stands for At least a degree holder loh. I think I will be forever learning new things also.
Overall [HD]
[HD] doesn't stands for High Distinction, it stands for highly destructible. I still have many room for improvement before I attain heavenly divine state.
Monday, September 06, 2010
The Weight
Formula: W = mg.
Kidding lah, you think I come here to teach physic meh?
But I am here to talk about weight.
To me, more weight is good weight.
To many girls out there, weight is bad, weighting machine is like their worst enemy.
It is very funny to see how they give excuses to avoid standing on weighting machine in front of other. When they get the 'ideal' weight display on the machine, they will have a sudden of relief.
If they don't get it, they will put all the blame on the weighting machine, saying the machine is stupid & not accurate at all.
Maybe I shall sell a weighting machine that always display weight of 50Kg and called it the "Smart Weighting Machine".
So this is the physical body weight we are talking about.
Next, I will like to talk about the weight of one's word. Actually every word has a weight to it, especially word like "love" and "hate". When you hear the word "love" from your loved ones, the word can be so powerful until it able to uplift your mood for the entire day but if you received the word from a weirdo, you probably will forget about it within a few minutes. The effect is almost the same as the word "hate", when we are kids, we like to say word like "I hate you!", "I don't friend you anymore!" to express our anger. So when I hear kids say that to me, I probably will laugh and walk away, few minutes later I come back and play with them, out of sudden, they don't hate me anymore.
Words that come out from respectable person have very powerful impact and it weight a lot or maybe worth a lot too. For example, when our Prime Minster say that he will give us $9000, we will not think that he is joking, we know he will give us but how? But when I say I will give $9000 for every friends in my Facebook, all my friend will confirm know that I am joking. So that is the great difference between me and Prime Minister, I am more humorous.
"One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life: that word is love."
Recently, I am helping a 7 year old girl call Vercella Veronica (VV) to do fund raising for her medical bill. I realize that the weight of money to certain extent has the same weight of one's kindness. With enough "weight" of the money, we will able to save her life too.
Today, I came across this conversion between VV and her mother.
VV : Why so many peoples visit me and get presents for me ?
VV's Mummy : Because they love you
VV : I know I got cancer.
In life, weight come in many forms, weight can be responsibility, illness, stress and pressure we get from daily life. Sometime weight train us to be stronger. Sometime too much weight will break us down.
“It's not the load that breaks you down - its the way you carry it”
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Life is about losing.
It's about understanding how to lose.
From the start of my time.
I gain life and many things else.
Then I start to lose some important things to me when I am really young.
I lose my pacifier, I lose my diaper, I lose my milk bottle, I lose my monkey, I lose my small bolster.
To think about it, I think someone throw it away without me noticing it or fighting for it.
This kind of experience happens very often in later part of my life.
When I get something new, I very happy with it. I will bring the things around, carry them, talk to them, throw them into the air. But some magical event happens, I somehow got another new item to be happy with, then I somehow forget the existence of the previous item I had. When I know it, the previous item just "magically" disappear. I may spent some time doing some investigation on the "disappearance" cases but soon it will become an "unsolved" cases.
This is why: The most precious thing in the world is the thing that you used to have it and you lose it and you never able to get it back.
But somehow I still can live with it and continue my life. I remember when I am young, I often ask my parent the question "Why?", they will reply me with "Don't know? but you will know it when you grow up" and I am very glad that last time got this program called "十万个为什么" and give me the false impression of turtle is smarter than rabbit. I think I watch the show so often that I may watch an episode twice. This is the part that I lose my ignorance.
Then I grow up, I lose more expensive stuff like wallet, money, Digimon, bicycle, swimming trunk (just kidding).
From never lose in game before, to lose until blur liao.
Finally, I start to lose things that are irreplaceable. I lose my friends, my dad, my memory.
Probably one day, I will lose my hope, my pride and my confidence.
Then I will remember that "Life is about losing" because during the process of living or surviving, you may lose yourself. At the end, Death will make you lose everything you have.
Then you left with nothing.
So to certain extent, It maybe good to be left with nothing when you are young, because you will feel the great impact of it, you will start to cherish and appreciate whatever you have.
The reborn or awaken will take place from there, then from nothing, you start to gain from every little happiness that you received from other like what happen to you when you are baby.
“Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow.”
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Mohamad Izuddin
I am sorry, I should have know it earlier.
You left the world on 5 March 2010.
I only get to know it by today...21 August.
For more than 5 months, I didn't notice that I already lost a great friend like you.
I am sorry.
You used to call me Rep. Because I am the class rep and you respect my character.
You have my respect too. We work hard together and score. You often treat me with movie tickets...but I haven't had a chance to treat you for a movie.
I used to joke with you a lot. I am sad that I didn't manage to help you much, ever since I left polytechnics. You told me that there are games that you want to play, I did download...but didn't have a chance to pass it to you.
Everything seems to have come too late.
I am sorry to have forgotten you this long.
But you will be remember for life.
You are one of my best friends in life.
You are a great man.
You left the world on 5 March 2010.
I only get to know it by today...21 August.
For more than 5 months, I didn't notice that I already lost a great friend like you.
I am sorry.
You used to call me Rep. Because I am the class rep and you respect my character.
You have my respect too. We work hard together and score. You often treat me with movie tickets...but I haven't had a chance to treat you for a movie.
I used to joke with you a lot. I am sad that I didn't manage to help you much, ever since I left polytechnics. You told me that there are games that you want to play, I did download...but didn't have a chance to pass it to you.
Everything seems to have come too late.
I am sorry to have forgotten you this long.
But you will be remember for life.
You are one of my best friends in life.
You are a great man.
Thursday, August 12, 2010
I very happy today :D
I experience two great things today!
Firstly, Yesterday (& Today) I have a long and great chat with her till I lose track of the time. Have many good laughter, glad to know her better. Too bad her mother wake up real early, hope the thunderstorm will just disappear and will not affect her at all. Maybe she can try fly above it too. Haha.
Secondly, I received e-mail from DigiPen that I have been accepted for the entrance
examination! Woo-hoo! One step closer to my goal. Hope I can get in and everything works out well :D
I so happy and luckily I stay at home today (forgot to go for my gym training).
If not, I think I will be so happy till I will just treat anybody on street with lunch to share my happiness with them. Good Good. I love Singapore ! Haha.
Maybe it is too early to be happy. I shall stay calm and wait for the actual result.
Firstly, Yesterday (& Today) I have a long and great chat with her till I lose track of the time. Have many good laughter, glad to know her better. Too bad her mother wake up real early, hope the thunderstorm will just disappear and will not affect her at all. Maybe she can try fly above it too. Haha.
Secondly, I received e-mail from DigiPen that I have been accepted for the entrance
examination! Woo-hoo! One step closer to my goal. Hope I can get in and everything works out well :D
I so happy and luckily I stay at home today (forgot to go for my gym training).
If not, I think I will be so happy till I will just treat anybody on street with lunch to share my happiness with them. Good Good. I love Singapore ! Haha.
Maybe it is too early to be happy. I shall stay calm and wait for the actual result.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
It is like a dream come true...again :D
I remember around 6 months ago.
My team and I was joking that we will get HD for our Final Year Project.
At that time, I have plan in my head, I have confident in my teammates' capability and teamwork.
We have many meetings and every meeting everyone will try their best to attend, it is already a very good sign.
They complete the tasks I given to them. I learn a lot of things along the way, try out new stuff, thinking of new ideas, changing initial UI design, take in new idea for UI design. So many months of hard work have paid off!
Today, my friend tell me the result is out. I go check on UOW site.
I got a HD! 86/100! It is unbelievable! Before this happen, I always thought that getting a High Distinction for Final Year Project is a dream.
This feeling actually happen before during my poly time, when I am the only person got Distinction in class for Final Year Project, I was like "Wow! I am kinda of lucky!"
But my study life not always full of success, I have failure when my poly teammate just tell me his hard disk crash and everything gone.
For my uni fyp, my best programmer fall sick and went to hospital, lucky he is healthy now. I am lucky to have such a responsible teammate who willing to teach me more stuff even he is in hospital.
God is good, Life is good, I shall work even harder. Hope one day I can achieve my dream and complete other dream too.
My team and I was joking that we will get HD for our Final Year Project.
At that time, I have plan in my head, I have confident in my teammates' capability and teamwork.
We have many meetings and every meeting everyone will try their best to attend, it is already a very good sign.
They complete the tasks I given to them. I learn a lot of things along the way, try out new stuff, thinking of new ideas, changing initial UI design, take in new idea for UI design. So many months of hard work have paid off!
Today, my friend tell me the result is out. I go check on UOW site.
I got a HD! 86/100! It is unbelievable! Before this happen, I always thought that getting a High Distinction for Final Year Project is a dream.
This feeling actually happen before during my poly time, when I am the only person got Distinction in class for Final Year Project, I was like "Wow! I am kinda of lucky!"
But my study life not always full of success, I have failure when my poly teammate just tell me his hard disk crash and everything gone.
For my uni fyp, my best programmer fall sick and went to hospital, lucky he is healthy now. I am lucky to have such a responsible teammate who willing to teach me more stuff even he is in hospital.
God is good, Life is good, I shall work even harder. Hope one day I can achieve my dream and complete other dream too.
Saturday, July 03, 2010
Life's Darkest Moment
Everyone has their darkest moment in life.
Everyone has their dark secret.
Everyone has the scar that remind them of the past.
Everyone has a unique problem which require themselves to overcome it.
But everyone is not alone. Maybe that is source of the problem.
Normally people fall into darkest moment in life is due to several reason.
1. Family/Friend/Pet pass away.
2. Unable to cope with study.
3. Accident/Illness happen to them.
4. Got betray.
5. Peer Pressure.
All these reasons is simply because they are not alone, their emotion is tied to one and other, competitive environment, the fear of losing/outcast, the loss of "daily" companion.
Afraid other seeing their scar, the scar make them fear of the uncertainty in future.
Problem that only they know the best and only they can overcome, because the enemy is themselves...the enemy comes in many form...pride,ego,seniority,fame and power.
The solution to all the fear. It is faith. Believe in yourself and think positively.
Everyone has their brightest moment in life. So when you are at the darkest time very soon you will see the light (same theory as day & night cycle)
Everyone has their proud moment. Never be too proud or too ashame with yourself. Because without every moment in your life. You will not achieve what you have today.
Everyone has a success secret to share with others, because they have survived, overcome and succeed. They are able to share and help people around them.
Every scar is a beauty, the scar symbolize you have survived, you have healed. It is a mark to remind you that how unbeatable you are.
Every unique problem is a trial. Overcome your personal trial to break personal limit and after that you will be wiser and stronger.
It is because everyone is not alone. Hence, we have the meaning to live on.
If Fighting alone is tough, why not Fight together. After all, we are family, friends and Human.
When a problem struck me hard and pushes me back, I move forward twice as hard to get myself back on track.
Where the strength comes from? It is comes from family, friends, faith and God.
Hope everyone is doing well and if you have any problem, I hope you can share and I am able to help or at least I can be your listening ear.
Everyone has their dark secret.
Everyone has the scar that remind them of the past.
Everyone has a unique problem which require themselves to overcome it.
But everyone is not alone. Maybe that is source of the problem.
Normally people fall into darkest moment in life is due to several reason.
1. Family/Friend/Pet pass away.
2. Unable to cope with study.
3. Accident/Illness happen to them.
4. Got betray.
5. Peer Pressure.
All these reasons is simply because they are not alone, their emotion is tied to one and other, competitive environment, the fear of losing/outcast, the loss of "daily" companion.
Afraid other seeing their scar, the scar make them fear of the uncertainty in future.
Problem that only they know the best and only they can overcome, because the enemy is themselves...the enemy comes in many form...pride,ego,seniority,fame and power.
The solution to all the fear. It is faith. Believe in yourself and think positively.
Everyone has their brightest moment in life. So when you are at the darkest time very soon you will see the light (same theory as day & night cycle)
Everyone has their proud moment. Never be too proud or too ashame with yourself. Because without every moment in your life. You will not achieve what you have today.
Everyone has a success secret to share with others, because they have survived, overcome and succeed. They are able to share and help people around them.
Every scar is a beauty, the scar symbolize you have survived, you have healed. It is a mark to remind you that how unbeatable you are.
Every unique problem is a trial. Overcome your personal trial to break personal limit and after that you will be wiser and stronger.
It is because everyone is not alone. Hence, we have the meaning to live on.
If Fighting alone is tough, why not Fight together. After all, we are family, friends and Human.
When a problem struck me hard and pushes me back, I move forward twice as hard to get myself back on track.
Where the strength comes from? It is comes from family, friends, faith and God.
Hope everyone is doing well and if you have any problem, I hope you can share and I am able to help or at least I can be your listening ear.
Monday, June 28, 2010
Completed University Life
At the age of 22, I completed my university life.
Not because I am genius.
Simply because I am lucky.
Born in a good family. Born at a good time. ORD at the right time.
I have a goal, I have a plan, I have 732 days left.
I just wish everything happen just like what I planned.
Because sometime bad things happen and I don't know how well I can handle it.
When people ask my age, I often spend sometime recalling it...somehow I got confuse how old I am...but after tomorrow I know I am 23.
I got myself a new computer. I should feel happy, but I don't really feel much happiness. I think I see Shannon laugh, I feel happier loh. Maybe I need to spent more gaming time on the new computer to make me understand it is worth it. But I think I prefer spent more time with Shannon, so interesting and magical to see a baby grow up.
23rd Birthday Wishlist:
Mum recover fully.
Eldest Sister recover fully.
Elder Sister is happy and less work to do.
Both my brother in law is happy and successful in career and family.
Shannon is happy.
My money in bank decide to multiply themselves.
Get into Digipen and Ubisoft.
Get a driving license.
All my friends is happy, healthy and lucky.
I want a girlfriend...haha...simple wish list right? Not greedy right?
Deal? Great :D
Not because I am genius.
Simply because I am lucky.
Born in a good family. Born at a good time. ORD at the right time.
I have a goal, I have a plan, I have 732 days left.
I just wish everything happen just like what I planned.
Because sometime bad things happen and I don't know how well I can handle it.
When people ask my age, I often spend sometime recalling it...somehow I got confuse how old I am...but after tomorrow I know I am 23.
I got myself a new computer. I should feel happy, but I don't really feel much happiness. I think I see Shannon laugh, I feel happier loh. Maybe I need to spent more gaming time on the new computer to make me understand it is worth it. But I think I prefer spent more time with Shannon, so interesting and magical to see a baby grow up.
23rd Birthday Wishlist:
Mum recover fully.
Eldest Sister recover fully.
Elder Sister is happy and less work to do.
Both my brother in law is happy and successful in career and family.
Shannon is happy.
My money in bank decide to multiply themselves.
Get into Digipen and Ubisoft.
Get a driving license.
All my friends is happy, healthy and lucky.
I want a girlfriend...haha...simple wish list right? Not greedy right?
Deal? Great :D
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