I am so busy partying,camping and enjoying my life until I have no time to blog.
Before my winter break start, there are many things I look forward to.
- Gathering/Outing with friends.
- Friend Birthdays Celebration.
- SIM CF Christmas Party.
- Christmas Eve Celebration.
- SPACE Camp.
- New Year Eve Celebration.
- Funomynite 2011.
- SIM CF Camp.
Now, half of the things that I look forward has passed. So far it is better than I expected. It is good to be alive.
Recently, I have been thinking about my dad last word too. He did not set any target for me to achieve, sometime I am thinking it is good or bad. Every time I watch drama, the parent in the show will want their child to be doctor, lawyer, police or something like that. But my dad didn't set any target for me, maybe in that way it makes me able to uncap my potential to sky high. Anyway I also have very high expectation of myself, so maybe I shouldn't worry about what my dad want me to become.
Sometime I feel like dreaming when I am actually living. I lead a simply life now. Do what I like, eat what I want, love what I love. It seems to good to be true. Maybe I should praise my life abit ar...well done life! keep it up!
It is not easy to be you.
Friday, December 31, 2010
Saturday, November 06, 2010
Losing focus
I have been losing focus recently.
No idea why, not sure what I should do.
Important things I end up not doing them.
Don't feel like playing games too.
Feel like eating a lot although I not hungry.
I feel like losing myself too.
Hope all these are temporary.
Feel like talking to someone.
No phone call, no sms...
Perhaps this is the peace that I have been wishing for.
Time to listen to music and read books.
No idea why, not sure what I should do.
Important things I end up not doing them.
Don't feel like playing games too.
Feel like eating a lot although I not hungry.
I feel like losing myself too.
Hope all these are temporary.
Feel like talking to someone.
No phone call, no sms...
Perhaps this is the peace that I have been wishing for.
Time to listen to music and read books.
Monday, November 01, 2010
Two Issues
There are two issues I wish to solve, Poverty and Aging Population.
True poverty is lack of education.
If education can come in a form of affordable or even free, this might able to solve the problem on health issue related, understand the number of choices in life and able to maximize one's potential.
Everyone should have the right to have proper education and lead a good life.
When one lead a good life, it is very likely that they will grow old eventually.
Aging population is the problem that the world is facing, this never happen in the past generation due to global disease attack and war causality. Because of peace and good medical support, people can live much longer than they used to have. This is a good thing but people see it negatively.
The solution is not to abandon them, but learn from their wisdom and experience.
It is true that when one get old, his/her ability will decrease but one's experience will still increase. Instead of abandon them in old folk home, we should think of ways to slow down the process that their ability start to decrease. Everyone should take up the responsibility of the elderly they have in the family. 家有一老,如有一宝.
Meanwhile, I will think of a solution to fix these two major problems that many countries are facing. My friend actually have a good idea of letting the senior citizen to setup schools to teach the young generation. I think I will think in that direction to provide the elderly a meaningful life that they can continue to lead on.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Making Friends in 21st Century
Welcome to the 21st Century...welcome.
Currently we are in the part of human history that technology has evolved faster than ever.
Mainly due to the shared knowledge across the globe - Internet.
Now we have popular social network like Facebook, MySpace, Twitter, Blogger, Tumblr, YouTube and many more.
By knowing someone name or their email address and having slightly more advanced IT skill, you can start your treasure hunting on that "someone" information and people who do that are called "Internet Creeper".
I just know that how creepy it is...Google is really a state of the art search engine.
If you want to be famous or let people to understand you easily via Internet. Feel free interconnect all your social network into one simple platform so that anyone with "average" IT skill can know a lot about you via Internet.
This somehow break the whole wonderful and magical moment of making friends. Before Internet is invented, people know each other via meeting in face to face, got introduce by another friends or matchmaker. You hardly know the person name or his/her contact number if you don't know any friends of his/her.
So sometime I have this feeling, let say today I go for a simple birthday party then I make some new friends. If one of the girls that I know from the party got to know my name and decide to "internet creep" me, then she will know many information from me via Facebook. My age, my birthday, my friends list, my occupation, my past education level, my achievement, my hobbies...if she found out my YouTube account, she will know what channel I subscribe to and what kind of media culture I am into it. If she lucky, she can even watch a video of mine. Then if she also know my blog then she will even get to know more about my recent thinking and past experiences. What if she is just a pretty, intelligent girl with high curiosity in me, because of how the social network portray me as a bad person then she just decided not to contact me in future. Of course, I don't really care about that since I don't think that I am a Saint too. But it is still a sad thing to happen just because of lack mutual understanding. It also feel weird that she can get so much information of mine without even me telling her anything except my name.
So what the point of knowing me better in the real life? In fact, there are many points to list out.
Point #1 - Understand my current self and ignore my history.
Point #2 - Validate my online social image with my real life image.
Point #3 - Simply to enjoy the moment of knowing each other better without using any other form of technology except being sincere to each other.
By understanding the pros and cons that technology has bring us.
I decide to do a reform in my life on my "online status" aspect.
By balancing the information I wish to remind myself and share with others and doesn't compromise my privacy and giving away my "story" too easy to the outside world.
No matter what Century we are in, we still have a freedom of choices to make if we willing to risk.
Friday, October 08, 2010
Gentlemanship
Recently, I want to improve my overall attitude toward life.
"People, like diamonds, have a basic market value, but it is only after they have been polished that the world will pay their real value."
- William Thourlby
Somehow, I manage to come across the word "Gentleman".
In current era, we often hear and use that word only in the opening of a presentation.
In the past, gentleman requires several qualities.
1. A Man of a good family.
2. Nobility in rank or personal qualities.
3. A Man with an income derived from property, a legacy or some other source.
(In simple term, he is very rich and did not need to work)
They have phrase like "to spend money like a gentleman" or "to conduct a business like a gentleman"
In both western & eastern culture, they encourage man to act like a gentleman or be a gentleman. Someone may able to make you a nobleman but no one can make you a gentleman.
The etiquette of a gentleman:
1. Always be polite - don't lower yourself to the level of person that you don't like.
2. Do not curse - it only show that you have no enough vocabulary.
3. Do not speak loudly - it only show that you can't reason without "brute force".
4. Do not lose your temper - keep cool at all time, good control over your emotion.
5. Do not stare - it show nothing but aggression.
6. Do not interrupt - it is a poor sign of etiquette.
7. Do not spit - that is an act of uncivilized .
8. Respect your elder - respect other as you would like them to respect you.
9. Do not laugh at others' mistake - it is a cruel act.
10. Wait for seating before eating - everyone should start dining at the same time.
The basics of chivalry:
1. Always open doors.
2. Help with her seat.
3. Give up your seat.
4. Stand at attention.
5. Give her your arm.
6. Ask if she needs anything.
The basics of good manners:
1. Don't flaunt your riches.
2. Never let others see you looking at your watches. - interpreted as boredom.
3. Never groom yourself in public.
4. Be punctual. - the greatest sign of respect.
5. Shake hands firmly.
6. Apply constant verbal grace.
7. Tip well and discreetly - 15% or no less than $10.
8. Project high moral values.
Behaving like a gentleman brings out the lady in every woman.
1. Be a gracious guest - thank the host or the most senior management.
2. Thank others - send handwritten thank-you notes for any gifts you receive.
3. Share your umbrella.
4. Cough thoughtfully.
5. Pay the bill discreetly.
6. Maintain eye contact.
7. Make introductions.
8. Engage people.
9. Follow the host's lead.
10. Never speak with food in your mouth.
11. Don't reach across someone.
12. Retrieve dropped items - bend at the knees, not from the waist.
13. Walk on the outside of a sidewalk. - if someone is going to be splashed, it will be you, not her.
孔子: 已所不欲,误施于人.
Wednesday, October 06, 2010
Saturday, October 02, 2010
The Grand Plan
I left 636 days to accomplish my grand plan.
This year is a fruitful year for me.
I learn many new skills, knowledge & techniques.
I also manage to know many new friends.
On 23 June 2010, I started to work hard for my initial aim.
My aim is to get into DigiPen-Ubisoft Professional Conversion Program for Game Designers.
The aim is not easy as they only have 10 students intake.
I started with taking up a modular course on Game Mechanics & Balance.
Enjoy the teaching over there and manage to make a few friends with same interests and passion.
Meanwhile, I work on my portfolio for the PCP for Game Designers.
The portfolio has many requirements.
1. Traditional Arts
2. Observational Analysis
3. Game Critique
4. Conceptual Development
This is just the beginning.
During the Game Mechanics & Balance modular course, I manage to learn to have better understanding in different core dynamics and how to balance a game. I also manage to create a few boardgames.
Right after I completed my modular course, I started with SP's Xbox 360 Game Development, manage to catch up with my juniors and learn about using C# on XNA Studio 3.1. Later on, I manage to self learn on converting XNA Studio 3.1 codes to XNA Studio 4.0 / Windows 7 Mobile.
Soon, I received email from DigiPen that my portfolio has been accepted and I have to go for their entrance exam. Their entrance exam is the longest exam I ever taken.
The exam lasted for two days (Saturday & Sunday), Exam period from 9am to 5pm each day.
Yes, so it is a total of 16 hours long exam. It required 8000 words.
After few days of waiting for the results. I passed my exam ! I was like so happy.
Then I received email from DigiPen & Ubisoft to go for their interview.
During DigiPen interview, I was nervous maybe I haven't done interview for quite awhile.
For Ubisoft interview, I was more well prepared and Ubisoft Company look great. People there is very friendly. After the interview, I really hope that I can work at there in the future.
After another few days of waiting, I received news that I got accept into the PCP for Game Designers on 30 September 2010.
The whole process from starting to plan for getting into DigiPen until I received the letter of acceptance. It took me exactly 99 days. Now, I know why people like to say wait long long.
I glad that I achieve my aim for 2010 if not all my hard work might go to drain, but i think the experience is still very worthwhile.
Now I shall plan for my next step.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Self Evaluation
Today is 19 September 2010, it is a good day to do self evaluation!
Relationship
-Family [A]
[A] stands for Always talking to my mother but i think should spent more quality time with her and my two sisters. I should visit my grandparents more often too.
-Friends [A]
[A] stands for actively make new friends but I also got keep in contact with old friends, although not all but I got tried to meet them le...haiz...maybe I should visit him soon too.
-Love [A]
[A] stands for Alone! Yeah, great to be single for nearly 10 years. I should celebrate anniversary with myself! But I forgot when is my last breakup, haha good that i didn't remember too, shall celebrate it with my birthday.
Health
-Body [B]
[B] stands for Balance! Because my weight don't change, no matter how much I eat, I am still as light as JJ. I think I must increase my numbers of meal or find a girlfriend that like to give me all the leftover food.
-Lifestyle [C]
[C] stands for Chaos! Because I sleep until I happy and I go to sleep when I am happy also, no system at all (actually got, happy go lucky system), I am thinking that my bio clock must be a digital version.
Financial
-Income [P]
[P] stands for Pathetic, I think is time that I go conquer the world.
-Protection [A]
[A] stands for Average, If anything happens to me, I got an average protection loh.
-Expenses [H]
[H] stands for Happy spending, in order to keep my happiness at the world class level. I will do many self investment since it is the best investment ever and has the highest potential of return.
-Education [A]
[A] stands for At least a degree holder loh. I think I will be forever learning new things also.
Overall [HD]
[HD] doesn't stands for High Distinction, it stands for highly destructible. I still have many room for improvement before I attain heavenly divine state.
Monday, September 06, 2010
The Weight
Formula: W = mg.
Kidding lah, you think I come here to teach physic meh?
But I am here to talk about weight.
To me, more weight is good weight.
To many girls out there, weight is bad, weighting machine is like their worst enemy.
It is very funny to see how they give excuses to avoid standing on weighting machine in front of other. When they get the 'ideal' weight display on the machine, they will have a sudden of relief.
If they don't get it, they will put all the blame on the weighting machine, saying the machine is stupid & not accurate at all.
Maybe I shall sell a weighting machine that always display weight of 50Kg and called it the "Smart Weighting Machine".
So this is the physical body weight we are talking about.
Next, I will like to talk about the weight of one's word. Actually every word has a weight to it, especially word like "love" and "hate". When you hear the word "love" from your loved ones, the word can be so powerful until it able to uplift your mood for the entire day but if you received the word from a weirdo, you probably will forget about it within a few minutes. The effect is almost the same as the word "hate", when we are kids, we like to say word like "I hate you!", "I don't friend you anymore!" to express our anger. So when I hear kids say that to me, I probably will laugh and walk away, few minutes later I come back and play with them, out of sudden, they don't hate me anymore.
Words that come out from respectable person have very powerful impact and it weight a lot or maybe worth a lot too. For example, when our Prime Minster say that he will give us $9000, we will not think that he is joking, we know he will give us but how? But when I say I will give $9000 for every friends in my Facebook, all my friend will confirm know that I am joking. So that is the great difference between me and Prime Minister, I am more humorous.
"One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life: that word is love."
Recently, I am helping a 7 year old girl call Vercella Veronica (VV) to do fund raising for her medical bill. I realize that the weight of money to certain extent has the same weight of one's kindness. With enough "weight" of the money, we will able to save her life too.
Today, I came across this conversion between VV and her mother.
VV : Why so many peoples visit me and get presents for me ?
VV's Mummy : Because they love you
VV : I know I got cancer.
In life, weight come in many forms, weight can be responsibility, illness, stress and pressure we get from daily life. Sometime weight train us to be stronger. Sometime too much weight will break us down.
“It's not the load that breaks you down - its the way you carry it”
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Life is about losing.
It's about understanding how to lose.
From the start of my time.
I gain life and many things else.
Then I start to lose some important things to me when I am really young.
I lose my pacifier, I lose my diaper, I lose my milk bottle, I lose my monkey, I lose my small bolster.
To think about it, I think someone throw it away without me noticing it or fighting for it.
This kind of experience happens very often in later part of my life.
When I get something new, I very happy with it. I will bring the things around, carry them, talk to them, throw them into the air. But some magical event happens, I somehow got another new item to be happy with, then I somehow forget the existence of the previous item I had. When I know it, the previous item just "magically" disappear. I may spent some time doing some investigation on the "disappearance" cases but soon it will become an "unsolved" cases.
This is why: The most precious thing in the world is the thing that you used to have it and you lose it and you never able to get it back.
But somehow I still can live with it and continue my life. I remember when I am young, I often ask my parent the question "Why?", they will reply me with "Don't know? but you will know it when you grow up" and I am very glad that last time got this program called "十万个为什么" and give me the false impression of turtle is smarter than rabbit. I think I watch the show so often that I may watch an episode twice. This is the part that I lose my ignorance.
Then I grow up, I lose more expensive stuff like wallet, money, Digimon, bicycle, swimming trunk (just kidding).
From never lose in game before, to lose until blur liao.
Finally, I start to lose things that are irreplaceable. I lose my friends, my dad, my memory.
Probably one day, I will lose my hope, my pride and my confidence.
Then I will remember that "Life is about losing" because during the process of living or surviving, you may lose yourself. At the end, Death will make you lose everything you have.
Then you left with nothing.
So to certain extent, It maybe good to be left with nothing when you are young, because you will feel the great impact of it, you will start to cherish and appreciate whatever you have.
The reborn or awaken will take place from there, then from nothing, you start to gain from every little happiness that you received from other like what happen to you when you are baby.
“Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow.”
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Mohamad Izuddin
I am sorry, I should have know it earlier.
You left the world on 5 March 2010.
I only get to know it by today...21 August.
For more than 5 months, I didn't notice that I already lost a great friend like you.
I am sorry.
You used to call me Rep. Because I am the class rep and you respect my character.
You have my respect too. We work hard together and score. You often treat me with movie tickets...but I haven't had a chance to treat you for a movie.
I used to joke with you a lot. I am sad that I didn't manage to help you much, ever since I left polytechnics. You told me that there are games that you want to play, I did download...but didn't have a chance to pass it to you.
Everything seems to have come too late.
I am sorry to have forgotten you this long.
But you will be remember for life.
You are one of my best friends in life.
You are a great man.
You left the world on 5 March 2010.
I only get to know it by today...21 August.
For more than 5 months, I didn't notice that I already lost a great friend like you.
I am sorry.
You used to call me Rep. Because I am the class rep and you respect my character.
You have my respect too. We work hard together and score. You often treat me with movie tickets...but I haven't had a chance to treat you for a movie.
I used to joke with you a lot. I am sad that I didn't manage to help you much, ever since I left polytechnics. You told me that there are games that you want to play, I did download...but didn't have a chance to pass it to you.
Everything seems to have come too late.
I am sorry to have forgotten you this long.
But you will be remember for life.
You are one of my best friends in life.
You are a great man.
Thursday, August 12, 2010
I very happy today :D
I experience two great things today!
Firstly, Yesterday (& Today) I have a long and great chat with her till I lose track of the time. Have many good laughter, glad to know her better. Too bad her mother wake up real early, hope the thunderstorm will just disappear and will not affect her at all. Maybe she can try fly above it too. Haha.
Secondly, I received e-mail from DigiPen that I have been accepted for the entrance
examination! Woo-hoo! One step closer to my goal. Hope I can get in and everything works out well :D
I so happy and luckily I stay at home today (forgot to go for my gym training).
If not, I think I will be so happy till I will just treat anybody on street with lunch to share my happiness with them. Good Good. I love Singapore ! Haha.
Maybe it is too early to be happy. I shall stay calm and wait for the actual result.
Firstly, Yesterday (& Today) I have a long and great chat with her till I lose track of the time. Have many good laughter, glad to know her better. Too bad her mother wake up real early, hope the thunderstorm will just disappear and will not affect her at all. Maybe she can try fly above it too. Haha.
Secondly, I received e-mail from DigiPen that I have been accepted for the entrance
examination! Woo-hoo! One step closer to my goal. Hope I can get in and everything works out well :D
I so happy and luckily I stay at home today (forgot to go for my gym training).
If not, I think I will be so happy till I will just treat anybody on street with lunch to share my happiness with them. Good Good. I love Singapore ! Haha.
Maybe it is too early to be happy. I shall stay calm and wait for the actual result.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
It is like a dream come true...again :D
I remember around 6 months ago.
My team and I was joking that we will get HD for our Final Year Project.
At that time, I have plan in my head, I have confident in my teammates' capability and teamwork.
We have many meetings and every meeting everyone will try their best to attend, it is already a very good sign.
They complete the tasks I given to them. I learn a lot of things along the way, try out new stuff, thinking of new ideas, changing initial UI design, take in new idea for UI design. So many months of hard work have paid off!
Today, my friend tell me the result is out. I go check on UOW site.
I got a HD! 86/100! It is unbelievable! Before this happen, I always thought that getting a High Distinction for Final Year Project is a dream.
This feeling actually happen before during my poly time, when I am the only person got Distinction in class for Final Year Project, I was like "Wow! I am kinda of lucky!"
But my study life not always full of success, I have failure when my poly teammate just tell me his hard disk crash and everything gone.
For my uni fyp, my best programmer fall sick and went to hospital, lucky he is healthy now. I am lucky to have such a responsible teammate who willing to teach me more stuff even he is in hospital.
God is good, Life is good, I shall work even harder. Hope one day I can achieve my dream and complete other dream too.
My team and I was joking that we will get HD for our Final Year Project.
At that time, I have plan in my head, I have confident in my teammates' capability and teamwork.
We have many meetings and every meeting everyone will try their best to attend, it is already a very good sign.
They complete the tasks I given to them. I learn a lot of things along the way, try out new stuff, thinking of new ideas, changing initial UI design, take in new idea for UI design. So many months of hard work have paid off!
Today, my friend tell me the result is out. I go check on UOW site.
I got a HD! 86/100! It is unbelievable! Before this happen, I always thought that getting a High Distinction for Final Year Project is a dream.
This feeling actually happen before during my poly time, when I am the only person got Distinction in class for Final Year Project, I was like "Wow! I am kinda of lucky!"
But my study life not always full of success, I have failure when my poly teammate just tell me his hard disk crash and everything gone.
For my uni fyp, my best programmer fall sick and went to hospital, lucky he is healthy now. I am lucky to have such a responsible teammate who willing to teach me more stuff even he is in hospital.
God is good, Life is good, I shall work even harder. Hope one day I can achieve my dream and complete other dream too.
Saturday, July 03, 2010
Life's Darkest Moment
Everyone has their darkest moment in life.
Everyone has their dark secret.
Everyone has the scar that remind them of the past.
Everyone has a unique problem which require themselves to overcome it.
But everyone is not alone. Maybe that is source of the problem.
Normally people fall into darkest moment in life is due to several reason.
1. Family/Friend/Pet pass away.
2. Unable to cope with study.
3. Accident/Illness happen to them.
4. Got betray.
5. Peer Pressure.
All these reasons is simply because they are not alone, their emotion is tied to one and other, competitive environment, the fear of losing/outcast, the loss of "daily" companion.
Afraid other seeing their scar, the scar make them fear of the uncertainty in future.
Problem that only they know the best and only they can overcome, because the enemy is themselves...the enemy comes in many form...pride,ego,seniority,fame and power.
The solution to all the fear. It is faith. Believe in yourself and think positively.
Everyone has their brightest moment in life. So when you are at the darkest time very soon you will see the light (same theory as day & night cycle)
Everyone has their proud moment. Never be too proud or too ashame with yourself. Because without every moment in your life. You will not achieve what you have today.
Everyone has a success secret to share with others, because they have survived, overcome and succeed. They are able to share and help people around them.
Every scar is a beauty, the scar symbolize you have survived, you have healed. It is a mark to remind you that how unbeatable you are.
Every unique problem is a trial. Overcome your personal trial to break personal limit and after that you will be wiser and stronger.
It is because everyone is not alone. Hence, we have the meaning to live on.
If Fighting alone is tough, why not Fight together. After all, we are family, friends and Human.
When a problem struck me hard and pushes me back, I move forward twice as hard to get myself back on track.
Where the strength comes from? It is comes from family, friends, faith and God.
Hope everyone is doing well and if you have any problem, I hope you can share and I am able to help or at least I can be your listening ear.
Everyone has their dark secret.
Everyone has the scar that remind them of the past.
Everyone has a unique problem which require themselves to overcome it.
But everyone is not alone. Maybe that is source of the problem.
Normally people fall into darkest moment in life is due to several reason.
1. Family/Friend/Pet pass away.
2. Unable to cope with study.
3. Accident/Illness happen to them.
4. Got betray.
5. Peer Pressure.
All these reasons is simply because they are not alone, their emotion is tied to one and other, competitive environment, the fear of losing/outcast, the loss of "daily" companion.
Afraid other seeing their scar, the scar make them fear of the uncertainty in future.
Problem that only they know the best and only they can overcome, because the enemy is themselves...the enemy comes in many form...pride,ego,seniority,fame and power.
The solution to all the fear. It is faith. Believe in yourself and think positively.
Everyone has their brightest moment in life. So when you are at the darkest time very soon you will see the light (same theory as day & night cycle)
Everyone has their proud moment. Never be too proud or too ashame with yourself. Because without every moment in your life. You will not achieve what you have today.
Everyone has a success secret to share with others, because they have survived, overcome and succeed. They are able to share and help people around them.
Every scar is a beauty, the scar symbolize you have survived, you have healed. It is a mark to remind you that how unbeatable you are.
Every unique problem is a trial. Overcome your personal trial to break personal limit and after that you will be wiser and stronger.
It is because everyone is not alone. Hence, we have the meaning to live on.
If Fighting alone is tough, why not Fight together. After all, we are family, friends and Human.
When a problem struck me hard and pushes me back, I move forward twice as hard to get myself back on track.
Where the strength comes from? It is comes from family, friends, faith and God.
Hope everyone is doing well and if you have any problem, I hope you can share and I am able to help or at least I can be your listening ear.
Monday, June 28, 2010
Completed University Life
At the age of 22, I completed my university life.
Not because I am genius.
Simply because I am lucky.
Born in a good family. Born at a good time. ORD at the right time.
I have a goal, I have a plan, I have 732 days left.
I just wish everything happen just like what I planned.
Because sometime bad things happen and I don't know how well I can handle it.
When people ask my age, I often spend sometime recalling it...somehow I got confuse how old I am...but after tomorrow I know I am 23.
I got myself a new computer. I should feel happy, but I don't really feel much happiness. I think I see Shannon laugh, I feel happier loh. Maybe I need to spent more gaming time on the new computer to make me understand it is worth it. But I think I prefer spent more time with Shannon, so interesting and magical to see a baby grow up.
23rd Birthday Wishlist:
Mum recover fully.
Eldest Sister recover fully.
Elder Sister is happy and less work to do.
Both my brother in law is happy and successful in career and family.
Shannon is happy.
My money in bank decide to multiply themselves.
Get into Digipen and Ubisoft.
Get a driving license.
All my friends is happy, healthy and lucky.
I want a girlfriend...haha...simple wish list right? Not greedy right?
Deal? Great :D
Not because I am genius.
Simply because I am lucky.
Born in a good family. Born at a good time. ORD at the right time.
I have a goal, I have a plan, I have 732 days left.
I just wish everything happen just like what I planned.
Because sometime bad things happen and I don't know how well I can handle it.
When people ask my age, I often spend sometime recalling it...somehow I got confuse how old I am...but after tomorrow I know I am 23.
I got myself a new computer. I should feel happy, but I don't really feel much happiness. I think I see Shannon laugh, I feel happier loh. Maybe I need to spent more gaming time on the new computer to make me understand it is worth it. But I think I prefer spent more time with Shannon, so interesting and magical to see a baby grow up.
23rd Birthday Wishlist:
Mum recover fully.
Eldest Sister recover fully.
Elder Sister is happy and less work to do.
Both my brother in law is happy and successful in career and family.
Shannon is happy.
My money in bank decide to multiply themselves.
Get into Digipen and Ubisoft.
Get a driving license.
All my friends is happy, healthy and lucky.
I want a girlfriend...haha...simple wish list right? Not greedy right?
Deal? Great :D
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Do you still remember your first time?
Don't get me wrong, I not here to share my first sexual experience or remind yours.
I am here to remind everyone but most importantly myself on my first time experience.
Do you remember the first hug or first kiss you have? Very highly possible it is from your parent. If you are parent will you allow other to kiss/hug your child first? haha highly not possible right? Although you can't give your parent as much attention as you were young, but you still can do a lot of things to remind them the happiness of creating you and felt all the time and effort is worth it.
I still hug my mom quite often, although she often too shy and reject my hug but I still attempt every few days. Actually I get quite sad when she reject my hug, heng my skin thick enough and my memory bad enough, usually the sadness is not very lasting...around 3 second?
Do you remember the first birthday wish you made? I can't remember mine too, but I used to make a birthday wish of having a bicycle...I think I make that wish for few years ba...quite waste hor? Bicycle so cheap only...I spent few years wish for it. In the end, I buy myself one bicycle somemore loh...$60 only. I do quite a lot of upgrade on it...I think I spent more money on the bike accessories than the bike...even the lock also cost me $30+ I actually want to upgrade it til world best bike de loh. But too bad during one accident the bike got too severe damage til no people willing to repair. Then got cheapo people come steal my spoil part then slowly steal everything...so my bike just got "recycle".
Do you remember your first love? I remember leh...the feeling quite shiok loh...that time I though I am the happiest person in the world liao. From the first sight, first chat, first phone call, first date, first hold hand, first hug, first kiss, first...til first breakup...wow more shiok I thought I die liao...no more heart...no more motivation to live til tomorrow. From chatting with girlfriend to chatting with pillow. From staring at her eyes to staring at the ceilling. From laugh with her to laugh at myself. Three days after breakup is like three years of repeating past memories. Haha, sound bullshit right? Yup it is bullshit...I am LJJ leh...breakup only nia...treat it as my first fall loh.
Do you remember the first time you buy phone? I remember also...cause when I young, damn poor, the phone i use is my sister donated to me also. The screen is either orange/green light. Send messenge got limit also. Keep messenge also got limit. Best part I using Hi-Card...it might well call "no money no hi" card...everytime I talk until most important part...then it say "sorry, please top up your card" Then I finally start work then got money. Buy a lot of things ar...one of them is my first phone. Nokia 6220 cost around $600 leh...now you know why Nokia so rich last time. Then I very happy...finally got multi-color and camera phone. Then I changed a few phone after that...working at Nokia HQ even more shiok I can have around three phone in my pocket sometime. But I never sell or trade-in any of my phone...I keep them in a box, wait for them to evolve. Then I got my iPhone 3GS...when I first used, I realise it is a revolutionary phone but 6 months later now I think iPhone 4 will be more power because of the "FaceTime" anyway I think I wouldn't change phone so fast. Cause no people will FaceTime with me also, I think they will still prefer to see me face to face ba.
Do you remember the first time reading my blog? From reading post by post til reading finish all the post right? Then lazy me just no update...then you also no patience to wait for new post...then until now manage to read a new post again. Yeah.
Morale of the story, we often too focus getting something new and forgot the initial experience of getting/having something that we really wanted for very long...then in the end we decide to abandon the old for the new one...what we might be losing is maybe ourself...old self. Haha, that why people say I never changes...got lah...you can't see only.
I am here to remind everyone but most importantly myself on my first time experience.
Do you remember the first hug or first kiss you have? Very highly possible it is from your parent. If you are parent will you allow other to kiss/hug your child first? haha highly not possible right? Although you can't give your parent as much attention as you were young, but you still can do a lot of things to remind them the happiness of creating you and felt all the time and effort is worth it.
I still hug my mom quite often, although she often too shy and reject my hug but I still attempt every few days. Actually I get quite sad when she reject my hug, heng my skin thick enough and my memory bad enough, usually the sadness is not very lasting...around 3 second?
Do you remember the first birthday wish you made? I can't remember mine too, but I used to make a birthday wish of having a bicycle...I think I make that wish for few years ba...quite waste hor? Bicycle so cheap only...I spent few years wish for it. In the end, I buy myself one bicycle somemore loh...$60 only. I do quite a lot of upgrade on it...I think I spent more money on the bike accessories than the bike...even the lock also cost me $30+ I actually want to upgrade it til world best bike de loh. But too bad during one accident the bike got too severe damage til no people willing to repair. Then got cheapo people come steal my spoil part then slowly steal everything...so my bike just got "recycle".
Do you remember your first love? I remember leh...the feeling quite shiok loh...that time I though I am the happiest person in the world liao. From the first sight, first chat, first phone call, first date, first hold hand, first hug, first kiss, first...til first breakup...wow more shiok I thought I die liao...no more heart...no more motivation to live til tomorrow. From chatting with girlfriend to chatting with pillow. From staring at her eyes to staring at the ceilling. From laugh with her to laugh at myself. Three days after breakup is like three years of repeating past memories. Haha, sound bullshit right? Yup it is bullshit...I am LJJ leh...breakup only nia...treat it as my first fall loh.
Do you remember the first time you buy phone? I remember also...cause when I young, damn poor, the phone i use is my sister donated to me also. The screen is either orange/green light. Send messenge got limit also. Keep messenge also got limit. Best part I using Hi-Card...it might well call "no money no hi" card...everytime I talk until most important part...then it say "sorry, please top up your card" Then I finally start work then got money. Buy a lot of things ar...one of them is my first phone. Nokia 6220 cost around $600 leh...now you know why Nokia so rich last time. Then I very happy...finally got multi-color and camera phone. Then I changed a few phone after that...working at Nokia HQ even more shiok I can have around three phone in my pocket sometime. But I never sell or trade-in any of my phone...I keep them in a box, wait for them to evolve. Then I got my iPhone 3GS...when I first used, I realise it is a revolutionary phone but 6 months later now I think iPhone 4 will be more power because of the "FaceTime" anyway I think I wouldn't change phone so fast. Cause no people will FaceTime with me also, I think they will still prefer to see me face to face ba.
Do you remember the first time reading my blog? From reading post by post til reading finish all the post right? Then lazy me just no update...then you also no patience to wait for new post...then until now manage to read a new post again. Yeah.
Morale of the story, we often too focus getting something new and forgot the initial experience of getting/having something that we really wanted for very long...then in the end we decide to abandon the old for the new one...what we might be losing is maybe ourself...old self. Haha, that why people say I never changes...got lah...you can't see only.
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Receiving a call
Today I suddenly recall my NS days.
Days that I have to wake up early in the morning and walk around 1KM to reach my office.
During those days, the first call that I received early in the morning is always to ask me to work...maybe lucky days ask me to eat breakfast. But there is this special day when I received a call from my friend. I ask her why she call me. She say because I complain that everyday in the morning, the first call that I received is mostly come and make me sad. So she decide to be my first call. Wow, quite touching hor?
Haiz...but I afraid of my failing memory...so better write down first before I thought that is just an illusion of mine.
The morale of the story is having a caring friend can brighten up your day and may worth a lifetime of happy memory.
Days that I have to wake up early in the morning and walk around 1KM to reach my office.
During those days, the first call that I received early in the morning is always to ask me to work...maybe lucky days ask me to eat breakfast. But there is this special day when I received a call from my friend. I ask her why she call me. She say because I complain that everyday in the morning, the first call that I received is mostly come and make me sad. So she decide to be my first call. Wow, quite touching hor?
Haiz...but I afraid of my failing memory...so better write down first before I thought that is just an illusion of mine.
The morale of the story is having a caring friend can brighten up your day and may worth a lifetime of happy memory.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
I want a girl ...
I want a girl that have the kind hearted look and is really kind hearted.
I want a girl that will love my mother like how I love my mother.
I want a girl that will tell me how she think about me everyday.
I want a girl that will allow me to protect her when danger arrive.
I want a girl that believe I am the best decision she ever made.
I want a girl that will sing song to me every night.
I want a girl that is cheerful and know how to cherish happiness.
I want a girl that will go shopping with me in supermarket and bookstore.
I want a girl that will encourage and praise me everyday.
I want a girl that will provide solution instead of complaining at the problem.
I want a girl that will cook for me everyday so that I can know she happy or sad everyday.
I want a girl that will eat my food and say she want more.
I want a girl that will laugh at my jokes and ignore other people criticism.
I want a girl that is smart enough to know that I am not a flirt.
I want a girl that will tease me a lot.
I want a girl that have confident in my decision making and will stick to me even my decision goes wrong.
I want a girl that love kids a lot and don't mind me being playful.
I want a girl that love me a little bit more than I love her.
I want a girl that want to be that girl.
I want a girl that will love my mother like how I love my mother.
I want a girl that will tell me how she think about me everyday.
I want a girl that will allow me to protect her when danger arrive.
I want a girl that believe I am the best decision she ever made.
I want a girl that will sing song to me every night.
I want a girl that is cheerful and know how to cherish happiness.
I want a girl that will go shopping with me in supermarket and bookstore.
I want a girl that will encourage and praise me everyday.
I want a girl that will provide solution instead of complaining at the problem.
I want a girl that will cook for me everyday so that I can know she happy or sad everyday.
I want a girl that will eat my food and say she want more.
I want a girl that will laugh at my jokes and ignore other people criticism.
I want a girl that is smart enough to know that I am not a flirt.
I want a girl that will tease me a lot.
I want a girl that have confident in my decision making and will stick to me even my decision goes wrong.
I want a girl that love kids a lot and don't mind me being playful.
I want a girl that love me a little bit more than I love her.
I want a girl that want to be that girl.
Recall My Life
3 Years of SP life, as I recall, it is full of fun and new experiences and is not about mugging at all. Education should be this way.
2 Years of NS life, as I recall, it is about learning a higher level skill of time-management, stress-handling, problem-solving, mutual understanding and forging friendship.
1 Year of Uni life, as I recall, it is about teamwork and self-learning and having a group of friends to go throughs those difficult times. At least a month of pure mugging. Great to have God blessing and family & friends support.
0 Year of Working life. That why I have to think and plan now. Before I grow old and only to regret that young never work hard enough for what I truly love.
Now, what I have, will change eventually. But I must remember to strive for my dream and be grateful for every small happiness in life.
I have fulfill many little dream of mine. Some dream that I thoughts I will have never has a chance to fulfill but I did. I fall then I stand then I fall then I stand. As long as I keep trying. I will fulfill the big dream of mine. The dream that no one dream of.
2 Years of NS life, as I recall, it is about learning a higher level skill of time-management, stress-handling, problem-solving, mutual understanding and forging friendship.
1 Year of Uni life, as I recall, it is about teamwork and self-learning and having a group of friends to go throughs those difficult times. At least a month of pure mugging. Great to have God blessing and family & friends support.
0 Year of Working life. That why I have to think and plan now. Before I grow old and only to regret that young never work hard enough for what I truly love.
Now, what I have, will change eventually. But I must remember to strive for my dream and be grateful for every small happiness in life.
I have fulfill many little dream of mine. Some dream that I thoughts I will have never has a chance to fulfill but I did. I fall then I stand then I fall then I stand. As long as I keep trying. I will fulfill the big dream of mine. The dream that no one dream of.
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